The Kids Aren't Alright

2010-03-23T21:06:00.002+08:00

Neither here nor there. Now I'm here.

Days with you will always be bright.

peace.

2010-03-19T13:31:00.003+08:00

Hi. I am here to take over your world.

holidays have never felt this great.

studies almost became a murder weapon.

so waddup? hope ya'll doing good. cause i am.

peace.

2010-02-15T22:53:00.004+08:00

''what you dream is what you could be.

what you become is what you didn't dream.

is what you want, what you need?

or is it just another way to show greed?''

peace.

2010-02-13T21:35:00.006+08:00

Very Special.

''Many weeks, many months of knowing each other.
We had ups & downs but it got better.
JRJ now & hopefully forever.
Nothing can stop us, as long as we're together.''

whatever pieholes. Happy Chinese New year to all of you. & Happy Valentine's day to all the dickheads & ladies.

JRJ is the shiznit.

peace.

2010-02-11T21:44:00.006+08:00

Permanent jet-lag.

school is killing me. this is something i would like to share with ya'll: students + dying = studying. oh, how true. can't wait to see Mdm Fat again tmrw. & thank god its friday & thank god again for the holiday. perfect timing. some people in the school are just so crappy. how i wish there was a vacumm to suck up all the filth of the society. but then again, whats a society without these monkeys?

ergh, my eyes are killing me softly. i barely have time to think through everything that has happened. oh well, its only for a year though. and oh, i've finally removed the stitches on my forehead.

you people have a great time alright!

oh oh, JRJ is the best.

peace.

2010-02-06T10:32:00.003+08:00

Mr & Mrs Freako

thanks everybody for the concern. im doing fine.

peace.

2010-02-02T22:22:00.004+08:00

What would you do when the one thing you last wished for, happened right infront of you?

results have not been pleasing to look at. progress have not reached expectations. well what to do? when you suck, you suck. but i still think i can rock people's balls. i have faith because i have a friend whose name is faith. now that was crap. i just happen to have it in me. now it's just the matter of keeping the faith. will i succeed or will i fail. that's the question.

the only thing i wish to do: to keep on going till the fat lady sings.

dont you guys catch a wink cause i'll be running head to head with ya'll in a matter of time.

save the last dance for me

peace.

2010-01-27T20:45:00.002+08:00

I hate defeats.

my heart sank when the final whistle was blown. i feel devastated. i can still feel it man. it sucks. it sucks to know that you have given your best, you've gave all that you've got. like everything till you go down on your scrapped knees, have hopes for the best but you lose. we lost 1-0. it was match to be remembered. i guess my best, just wasn't good enough. you can call it unlucky.

peace.

2010-01-26T18:24:00.002+08:00

Forgetting yesterdays.

i've made it to where i am & want to be. no lookin back anymore. it's been a rough road to get me here. the sweat & ache i had to bare. i stopped at nothing for the chance to even be here. the sacrifices & choices i made. it was worth the while, it was worth the wait. it was worth it all. what am i talking about you ask? first, thank you bus driver of bus 970 for sending me home & oooo, it feels great to be on the bed.

that was crap.thanks for reading it.

you had the chance & you blew it.

peace.

2010-01-24T21:33:00.004+08:00

Head spinnin', hands tremblin'

to be honest, my mind's blank.

ok, i'll start with a simple, hello dudes & dudettes

you know sometimes you just gotta write to get it off your chest.

i spent some time in the toilet with the laptop while shit shitting in the morning. zerious, no kidding. my phone's going mental again, it never stops vibrating.

i wanna catch up on old times with peeps. i think hanging out with em might improve my morale. maybe i should.

see you tities around.

peace.

2010-01-23T09:25:00.003+08:00

Welcome to Saturday.

ah, the weekends are here. like finally!

preperatory exams in a few days. & soccer tournament starts in a few days as well.

imma meet Mike later on. gonna study for the exams.

i got te drive to study now.

i would like to say sorry to both.

peace.

2010-01-20T20:18:00.003+08:00

It still means something.

if only i could put it in words.

peace.

2010-01-17T07:25:00.002+08:00

What am I to do.

i slept at 9 last night & woke up at 6. spent a good 45mins in the toilet & now im here. no seriously, it took me 30 mins to let it all go. another 15 mins of relaxination. i've got stomp in about few hours but i dont know what time to report. i really hope that she is coming. its been a long wait.

here's my diet since the beginning of the year.
1 or 2 proper meals on monday to thursday. if i eat only 1 proper meal, i'll be eating snacks & junk for the rest of the day.
3 or 4 heavy meals(rice with etc.chicken, egg) on fridays, saturdays & sundays. + ice creams on saturday nights.
i really think i should change my diet. & eat veggie. okay that was random.
aight imma go find something chew on.

stay true dawg.

peace.

2010-01-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

Give me the strength to carry on.

it's only the 11th day of the new year and i'm already starting to feel the pressure. i have maths homework undone, mother tongue homework not done & 2 textbooks not bought yet. adding to the pressure, i got soccer 2 to 3 times per week & 'O' level art coursework is gonna start real soon. it's draining me out. it feels like dracula sucking out my blood bit by bit. i really think this could lead to my downfall & giving up hopes of working harder.

peace.

2010-01-05T21:27:00.009+08:00

A lil' bit of something.

so how's first 2 days of school? well, its running smoothly for me. it started with maths & i think i kinda like maths now. no more slacking behind anymore this year. i pray hard that somehow, a phone will drop into my hands. it doesn't feel the same without one.

now here's the thang, i feel empty.

peace.

2010-01-02T19:53:00.002+08:00

A special woman.

oh, i forgot to mention that i lost my phone on new year's eve. what a way to end 2009 huh? gotta live without it. i wish all you rockers & babes the best of luck.

peace.

2009-12-31T23:35:00.002+08:00

The final moments.

a few more minutes to 2010. & im in the living room with the laptop. Mike's in my room watching the Rain fashion show. we're probably gonna stay up the whole night. 31st december will always be remembered as the date i met Norah. it's been what? 2 or 3 years already.

aight i can't make up my mind whether 2009's a year to remember or a year to forget. alot to smile about, yet so many to regret. but for what is worth, it was worth all the while i guess. lessons learned, lessons taught. leave 2009 behind, live 2010. im lookin forward to what 2010 has in store for me.

so here's signing off for the last time for 2009. may god bless you all & keep on rockin'!

peace.

2009-12-14T13:58:00.002+08:00

Sipjeom manjeome sipjeom

the sweetest thang.

That girl neomu yeppeo,

Oh my god giga makhyeo.

Lalalalalalala~ pretty baby

Lalalalalalala~ be my lady.

sorry jandi. she's way better:)

Saranghae, Park Bom.

falling sick slowly, that's the last thing i would want to go through. so lethargic yet i want to go out.

peace.

2009-12-11T17:52:00.004+08:00

@ starfucks.

ah, im craving for another caramel frappe as i stare at the wheapcream being sprayed onto the drink. woke up with a really bad sore throat. body temperature rising. feelin weak. symptoms of H1N1. heh. ole, i got 10 more hours remaining for my CSO. god, i really cannot wait for this thing to end. okay pals, remember to make a party once my probation ends. heh.

currently youtube-ing & on msn. okay wow, results are next week. im *speechless, over the edge & just breathless. i never thought i could catch this lovebug again* no, really, i dont know what to feel when i think about my results. i feel nothing. like this empty feeling.
its the kind of feeling when you dont care about anything else but you seem to have alot of things to say, feel or do when it comes to someone or something that is idk? a big part of your life. like ermmm, you've run out of feelings to feel cause you used it all up on someone or something. haha. ah, fuck it ah. hah. this couple french-ing at the corner of the cafe. oh what a wonderful sight.

i wish to end 2009 right now & have a new start.

peace.

2009-12-10T13:26:00.007+08:00

Clap my arse.

havent been on the net for idk how many days. currently at the library using the lappy. some arsehole played with the internet wire at home & i cant get on the net. so mmmmm. i went for my CSO on monday to wednesday. made 4 new friends. it was great getting to know them. all coming from different backgrounds. its funny how 3 days can bring upon a new friendship. one of them is Pauline. she's a really nice lady. she's been through alot & she shared with me some tips & advise. hoping to give her some updates about me soon.

ah, i feel like a loner right now. i tried calling Mike but i think he's off to Korea already. left without saying goodbye, what a friend. heh. lets just hope he'll have a safe trip there & back. & hopefully bring back some Jandi figurines like i told him to do so. hah. oh yeah, Akif will be back on Saturday. ah, can't wait to see him. alot alot alot to talk to him & im sure he has alot to tell me about thai chickas. ;)

my throat is killing me.

i don't see myself being happy 3 years down the road.

oh oh. ILoveJandi.

peace.

2009-12-03T23:58:00.003+08:00

The taste of shit.

i dont know what i should really write here anymore.
used to have alot to say.

highlights for today were,
laughing my butt off at work when a guy gave a bag full of his shit inside when he was supposed to only give a small tube with his shit inside. ma god, gross.
oh oh & had starbucks for free. it was one of their annual events where you have to donate a amount. any amount & you can get any drinks for free. thank salvation army i guess.
&& mike treated me to korean food. i would like to know whether eating kimchi makes you a korean. hmmmm. hah. fool. but i would like to be one though.

peace.

2009-12-01T19:20:00.001+08:00

ah, life is boring. can't wait for next year.

peace.

2009-11-29T00:25:00.002+08:00

When everything feels like the movies.

i deeply believe that a life should be lived like a movie. you're the director of your own life. you decide what to do the next second, the next minute & so on. there comes a point of time where you become the hero, when everyone looks up to you. they trust in you. an example in life, when people trust you to keep a secret, keep promises, keep faith. or maybe when you have to lead your team, be it in camps, school, work. those little things in life makes you a hero of your movie, of your life. then there comes a point when you become one of the bad guys. or in other words, a villain. for example, you burst out at someone because you are mad & you make them sad or angry, either way, it makes you a villain for a short time in your life. then you can change it back to becoming one of the good guys. or maybe you're the type of person who is the backbone of the movie. for example, remember aunt may from spiderman? the one who gives advises & takes care of peter parker? uh huh, maybe you're like her. the supporting kind of role in someone else's life. any ways you want it, live it. its your life, it's your movie. you call the shots.

you have a bad memory that you really want to get rid of? take that as a bad episode of your movie & leave it behind you, move on. make a new one. an even better one. where things don't have to turn out the way they did before.

& always give a little thinking about all the coming episodes of your movie, your future. when you think you're done with this episode, proceed to the next one. try to achieve what you've set for the upcoming episodes of your life.

''one life, live it.''

peace.

2009-11-28T08:38:00.003+08:00

Get your butts up, start moving.

waddup mofos.

i've been in & out of the toilet twice. thanks to the lontong & prata yesterday. heh. Jeni's gone. boohoo! yeah, she's dead. nono, she's at phil. haha. i just got to know, there's a cut-off date for my pay. but idc, as long as i get the money. supposed to have CSO today but i gave an excuse saying i have to help with the packing & moving of my grandma's stuff. which is totally fake la. heh. lazy, yes lazy. gonna meet Akif. then meet idk who's that guy's name. wait, lemme think. oh yes, Farris. & Suhaimi i think. they say they're going to this hardcore gig @ bugis & one of our schoolmates' performing as well. so whatever, just tag along lor.

haven't seen you for so long.

i want to take you to hong kong

to play ping pong

& watch king kong

while we eat lontong

& a la carte, sotong.

i hope you've enjoyed this song.

-for you, the one i miss.

peace.

2009-11-24T14:52:00.003+08:00

Dreams are big, big dreamer.

a simple hello from me to you.

how's it going out there? im good. been working alot. had alot of ups & downs these few days. i lost my wallet which has treasure in it, for example, my geum jandi pic, pictures of friends, my skinhead picture, condom(which is a souveneir i got from a friend)heh. got pissed off with the people at work. that's probably it. heh, all on the down side, nothing much on the bright side. still, i try to be glad with what i have through my pals.

oh, i've started writing songs recently. well, not really songs but just lyrics. im always with a foolscap pad. you might never know when inspiration would strike you to write a song. what do i get out of writing bulls? hmm, nothing a really. its just one way to let something out, to tell people about what i think of. if you know me, im someone who wants to let everyone know bout everything that i think is worth telling. who knows where song writing can take me. the next time you see a famous artiste's music video & you see my name under ''lyrics by:", do not, i said, do not be surprised. heh. dont mind me, this is just one of my crazy dreams la.

"I've been sitting here for days,

thinking of the many ways

to get through to you,

to convince you to stay"

-a verse from the song Let Me Be There For You.

peace.

2009-11-16T12:32:00.002+08:00

Something to be proud of.

Happy Birthday Piggy. thanks for being in my life. though you were a pain in the ass for the last 4 years, be it crazily in love with me or irritating me. thanks i guess. heh. see ya later.

have you had this feeling that you have done something way beyond what you could achieve? well hell yeah, i had that feeling yesterday. oh god, it felt so good. Hadi came over at 12 midnight. we were prank-calling people till 2am. & we went out. him with his skateboard & me with my longboard. went down the slope at holland v. which was alright for me. then we went down to sixth ave & my god! the slopes were steep & the adrenaline rush going down the long stretch of road was totally unimaginable. i went faster than i have ever did. how i wished there were more of us. we were spotted by the men in blue a couple of times but i guess it was our lucky day. got back home & skadoosh, im dead. one of those great rides of the century.

peace.

2009-11-13T23:10:00.002+08:00

Piggy bank for a friend?

aye peeps!

weekends are here, woohoo. heh.

imma go swimming tmrw with Akif. i know ya'll think that me & him are like gays from the stories i've told you guys about but really, no. we're not. totally straight man. i had cramps after swimming only a couple of laps the other day. gotta work my muscles.

i went to bugis earlier with Fana & Fad. god damn it, they took like an hour or so just to buy a shtoopid dress. but ah, i understand. we saw this old guy staring at the display items infront of the sex shop in the junction. i was just wondering if he could be one of my friends in future.

aight, i have work from next tuesday till friday. which means im free on monday, i'll go for Em's birthday. im still thinking of what to buy from her. i think she would expect me to buy her something since she took all the heart pain & heart aches a few years back. so its like my turn to repay her? hmm, probably get her a PIGGY bank? suweet! maybe i should. how does that sound Em?

currently webcam-ing. weehoo~

peace.

2009-11-12T23:21:00.006+08:00

Bringing the house down.

sup!

went to follow the Stomp troopers for their performance @ River Valley Pri. & god, they were so hyped up. i didnt know whether i was seeing monkeys jumping around the stage or was it them. some even looked like they were being tasered by the police.(i mean it in a good way aight) the crowd were asking for an encore. wow, first time in history. they totally rocked their balls off there. the best part of today was in the bus, on the way back to school. & wow, what a party we had. all of them getting a taste of clubbin'. "mini clubbin" the bus driver putting on some beats for us & all of us went haywire. poppin' screamin' lickin' sweatin'. hah. havent had this much fun for a long while. oh what a day.

hope ya'll doing great out there.

peace.

2009-11-10T22:19:00.004+08:00

ok here's one for Jeni. sincerely from me. heh

you know babe, i have what i've wanted. & that's you. she's reading this. she's thinking what the hell am i gonna write below. please do not guess what imma type down here, cause its gonna spoil the fun.

ok fat ass, if you really really do love me:

1. if you're sitting down right now, please stand.

2. put your left arm up, straight up.

3. now put your head closer to you left arm, like leaning against it.

4. put your nose closer to your pits.

5. i know it's gonna smell bad but,

6. say this to yourself right now: i love shakir so much!

7. read the words below.

8. you're an idiot if you did what i've asked you to do.

9. god i love you so much.

10. yeah, i really do.

heh, i know i've been acting like a fool & really annoying to you, but i just love to see you get annoyed. you look so cute! & looking at you laugh when i do funny faces makes me happy.

peace.

2009-11-10T22:00:00.002+08:00

I feel ya mom, i feel ya.

waddup dawg!

i've been working for the last few days. it sucks waking up at 5 in the morning everyday, dragging my lazy ass out of bed, shivering after hitting the showers & leaving the house with a kilogram of eyebags. but wth, its all for the good. now i know how my mom feels & i totally understand why she looks half dead after coming back from work. so, work has been quite alright. i've been doing blood pressure for many different people. it's really stressful when your patients/customers/clients aren't satisfied with their blood pressure readings. they'll be like ''eh why my blood pressure so high?! its usually normal. i think your machine spoil la''

i'll get pissed off deep down sometimes. but hey, you cant just ask them to fuck off or shut the hell up, they're your customers anw. on the brighter side, i get to meet with alot of different people, work with different people & getting to know my collegues better. they're friendly people. somehow, everyday, there'll be funny moments i'll experience at work. good job!

aight, i've been missing alot of my friends. catch up with them sooner or later.

ok here's what i wanna get after i get my first pay. a new longboard! uh huh, check me out lads. i'll be crusin' with a new beautiful longboard. heh.

goodbye suckers.

peace.

2009-11-04T16:20:00.002+08:00

Work.

sup!

first day at work @ ITE Simei was alright. met a few people which i will be working with till i quit the job. what can i say about the job? hmmm, quite relaxing? it can be rushy sometimes though. i learnt fast & im getting the hang of it. but the only problem is multi-tasking which is one of my weakest asset. working at Tuas tomorrow & at the office till 7pm. prepared? not really but im looking forward to it. its gonna suck waking up at 5 in the morning(suweet!) every single weekday but fuck it ah.

Ah, i dont get Singapore nor the typical people you see on the streets.

to Jeni:

im not gonna see much of you neither are you gonna see much of me.

you know i miss you & i'll try to make myself free.

&& you know im doing this for you & me :)

peace.

2009-11-02T21:49:00.004+08:00

Lucky faggots

today, monday, 2nd of november, has got to be the luckiest day in my entire life. well, not just for me, but for Akif as well.

so this is how it went. i had to meet my officer in the morning, blah blah blah & then i met akif at yew tee. bumped into aryna & fieza at yew tee point. had lunch & off we go to bugis. had trouble finding the work place. me & akif looked like idiots. more like gay idiots actually. so we finally found the place. & we had our interview. damn hilarious. you should have listened to our 'pretending to be fluent english speakers'. which we are fluent sometimes, especially Akif. & fuck it, we got the god gamn job, god damn it. suweet! so that's just only part one.

afterwards, i met my lovely pinoy fat ass girlfriend & her bimbo korean friend, Jennifer at starbucks before going to Ion. the four of us were walking past some food stalls & Akif heard someone calling out ''free food'' & us, being singapore citizens, what else, kiasu la! we went straight to the restaurant & we ordered food like nobody's business. suweet! Akif ordered this 12 piece chicken combo which he shared with the four of us. my tongue & lips were burning the moment i finished my 2nd chicken. Jeni's eyes were watery the minute she finished her first. poor baby. the place is called Boncho 4 fingers chicken or something. its on B3 in Ion. they'd probably still be giving out food for free.

so wtf? got a job & free food?! it's not like everyday that you can get something like this man. lucky faggots.

i start work on wednesday. ya'll won't be seeing much of me. have a great holiday!

peace.

2009-10-31T10:29:00.002+08:00

Hello halloween

everybody is probably thinking of what to wear for the day or what costumes to go for clubbing or whatever. well, im gonna stay at home unless my pals come over for the night at holland v. im gonna go swimming in the afternoon later on at the swimming complex behind my block. work those muscles & get back those abs. another performance tomorrow morning but im not looking forward to it. idk why. gotta get my mood & momentum back. Jeni's back from camp. yay!

to all you rockers & babes, Happy Halloween! enjoy your day.

peace.

2009-10-29T07:58:00.002+08:00

What's on the menu?

wasup dudes & babes!

so what's for today? i have an 'issue' to settle for myself. its not really an issue but idk how to describe it. i'll take it slowly, step by step. & then i have another issue about a friend. it really pisses me off to see a friend get hurt. & after that i can enjoy! the wheather hasn't been good & sunny these past few days. it's been cold & rainy. im planning to hit the beach to find a couple of bitches. no, im just kidding. just gonna chill by the beach, enjoy the sun & hopefully get burnt. hope it doesn't rains. Sentosa, here i come.

peace.

2009-10-27T08:59:00.005+08:00

9 to nine

woke up pretty early thanks to my bro. he was making alot of noises while getting ready for school. hah. its okay. stomp practise today in the afternoon. gonna go school as soon as i finish watching this dvd. have been far off from my usual self these past few days. suweet! but whatever it is, im still me. see you peeps around.

i know we've talked but i dont think it was enough.

peace.

2009-10-24T11:28:00.002+08:00

I don't want to be friends with Ms Lonely.

a beautiful saturday morning but no plans to go out yet. been stuck at home, feeling so lonely, watching dvds, facebook-ing, talking to myself, radiohead-ing & digging junks from the fridge. poor me. even if i did have a plan, i've got no cash. no wait, i do have. ermmm, i've got 25 cents in my wallet. how's that? is it enough to get me somewhere? i, abdul shakir, strongly believe that i can survive through the weekends with 25 cents. suweet! hmm, feel like hitting the beach. maybe i'll just go to some random playgrounds that has sand. take my clothes off, keep my boardshorts on, put on the shades, lay back & enjoy the sun. i wonder what people would think of me. haha.

somebody, anybody, be it a boy or girl or in between, please ask me out. im bored. but you have to cover for my transportation fee back home. i promise you i'll pay you back 5 times the amount you pay for me.

peace.

2009-10-23T11:42:00.003+08:00

Sweet!

sup!

listenin' to 98.7 right now. it's the v-spot with ms van-detta.

ears have been stuck to the radio or the headset these past few days.

woke up pretty early this morning, though i was up with the headset on listenin to desiree lai on midnight delights last night. woke up & watched The Hottie & The Nottie on dvd, sweet!

got a performance this sunday @ RP. practise is at noon today. im hoping to bring the camera back today. haven't been snapping for a long, long time.

thanks Jen, for changing my blogskin. sweet!

& im hoping i could break my longboard into two so that i could have an excuse to buy a new one. sweet! nah, just kidding, i still love my longboard. i think its not about how beautiful your longboards are, but how you make your longboards beautiful. talking abt beautiful longboards, was walking around town the other day & i saw these new longboards from Globe on display at Flash n Splash @ Heeren. god damn, they're beautiful. hah.

keep on ridin'

peace.

2009-10-22T18:21:00.002+08:00

I thought I died. Thank God I'm still alive. It took me about 2 hours to search for a suitable skin for this man here. And I just CANNOT find one. So I just picked this simple layout here. Haha, hope he likes it. Well, it DID kill my boredom. BUT, it got me restless on my computer seat. Whatever, I still get to change the skin. :D

Signed off

6.25 PM

You know who it is ;D

Jeni

2009-10-21T10:03:00.003+08:00

It was worth the while.

since i've got alot of time in my hands, imma tell you ladies & gentlemen about these 4 years i had in chestnut.

so check this out.

most people were thrown into chestnut cause they couldnt get the schools they chose. but it was different for me. my brother told me to put my 1st choice as chestnut. thats the reason why im in chestnut. i didnt know what to expect when i first came to chestnut. i was greatful that Farris was in the same school & class with me. we've been friends since primary 1. made friends with micheal, aliff & akif. it was the start of a great friendship. as the months went pass, we started showing our true colours, one by one. haha. getting into trouble, making teachers leave the school, making teachers cry, bullying classmates. the 2nd year was probably the most awesome. lots happened. aliff setting fire on the teachers table, making teachers cry again & so much more. there was also the start of a brotherhood, still standing strong to this day. hadi, izzuan, farris, micheal, akif & me. 6six, we called ourselves. going to town every friday, making a fool of ourselves. running around the mall, disturbing people, shouting at the top of our lungs. & then towards the last part of the year, ahmad joined us & it was more chaotic of course. the 3rd year wasn't really my year. i went missing from them for almost the whole year. & yeah, i got into trouble with the law. how stupid. i found them back during late november. & im glad im back with them. i totally missed alot of what has happened in school & bros. the 4th year, errrrmm was alright i guess. i found myself & i know who i am now. i got to meet Jenica. grew closer with the usuals like fieza, suhaimi, fadhila, emily, fana & all. it was great. oh yeah, one thing i could clearly remember was when there was fire in class & i extinguished the fire & saved everybody's lives. super shakir. haha.

damn, it was so fast. i know i didnt live these 4 years to the fullest & hey, it taught me more than i could have learnt. not just in the classrooms, but also outside the classrooms. my heart's heavy, leaving chestnut. but life goes on. thank you very much friends & teachers. you all played a big part in my life.

peace.

2009-10-20T07:58:00.004+08:00

With a touch of your grace.

photographer, shakir. hand on the left, jeni. hand on the right, shakir.

hmmmmm, life's great! got two big blisters on both my feet & it feels great. my left toe is bruised, idk why, but it feels great. i think this is what i get from longboarding but it feels god damn great.

aight, last friday & saturday was awesome.

firstly friday, went out with jenica rose jimenez. we catched 500 days of summer on the big screen @ cathay. made a bet with her actually, i said it was called 5000 days, but she said it was 500 days. whoever gets correct gets a kiss on the cheek. haha, yeah, i purposely said the movie was called 5000 days of summer just so that i can kiss her. i know, what a loser. haha. so back to the movie, i enjoyed it very much, yes. hilarious, yes. romantic, yes. i'll rate it 4/5, yes.
so then, we went to keppel bay. blah blah blah. watched the sun slowly submerge into this big clouds. magnificent! i enjoyed the day very much.

saturday. it was ahmad's open house. i was the first guest there. lotsa food, cakes & blah blah blah. many of his relatives were there by the evening & i was left out at the corner cause none of my homies were there. except for ahmad. so decided to play with the kids. haha. i made friends this two sisters. they were nicknamed, heart & thim. heart was ambitious. thim was really cute, laughing at everything. so as the day goes on, peeps came one by one. opened up sheesha & we breathed the dragon. then i saw heart crying. i went up to her & i asked her why was she crying. haha. she said that none of the kids wanted to be friends with her. awwwww, isnt that cute or what. so, ya, i had to accompany her blah blah blah. aye, had fun on that day.

ogay, i've got stomp practise this afternoon. can't wait to get to school actually. kinda miss it already. aight, kira, take me to school!

peace.

2009-10-16T10:03:00.003+08:00

what a lovely friday morning. it was raining in the morning & i had a great time sleeping i guess. & now, im feeling awesomely fresh. i dont think imma bathe before going out lataaa. heh, just kidding. aye, the sun is up & i hope it stays this way for the rest of the day till dawn. going out with Jeni today. to town & then keppel bay. see ya later Jen.

aight, i got like 2 & a half months of holiday. im gonna finish up my community service order first, & then i'll work for my mum. & what do i do with the salary? buy a new longboard & shoes! yeah! uh huh uh huh!

peace.

2009-10-13T09:48:00.003+08:00

Another false alarm, red flashing lights

skating, cruising, slacking, eating, shitting, drinking, bathing, sleeping.
these are the activities i've been doing for the last couple of days. & i almost shit in my pants this morning. my dunk was on the edge of my a-hole.

i had a dream and in that dream, i was in a hotel room. a guy at the door was screaming at me. i was on the bed, clinching my fist. he moved in closer towards me, with a gun. i stood up & gave a right hook to his face. he dropped the gun & i picked it up. without thinking, i shot him right in the head.
the next thing i knew, i was awake with drops of sweat coming down my sideburns. it felt so real. the emotion i had after i shot that guy, felt realistic. was it just a dream?

i wonder how i still miss you & love you
one thing i know for sure, i wanna grow old with you.
i love you but i know we cant be together right now.

peace.

2009-10-09T08:47:00.002+08:00

i feel: overjoyed!

Nlevels are over for me! three cheers for shakir. some my homies still have one or two more papers to go. good luck for them. but right now, imma enjoy my newfound freedom. no need to wake up at 6 in the freakin morning anymore & wear that horrible school uniform. it will be fun, but it's kinda sad to know that im leaving behind a ship full of precious memories, be it good or bad. the friends i have there changed my life. the teachers changed my life. Chestnut Drive Secondary School changed my life.

aight, enjoy life! till next time, you peeps keep on ridin' & partayin'!

2009-10-02T18:06:00.002+08:00

one week more & im out of that miserable school. its not all miserable though, if i look at it again. its just the people who brings misery to the school.
aaaah, have been killing my braincells for the past few days. it feels like going down the slope i walk up & down for the past 4 years, only this time on my longboard & going at 80km/h. scary stuff. i've started planning my days after the exams, what to do, when, this & that & blah blah blah.
hmm, right now, im just sitting in this peaceful room, birds chirping outside my window, sun setting & just thinking how it would be after the exams. *sigh* it really kills me to know that it aint gonna be the same anymore. no more scoldings, no more afterschool 'projects', no more chestnut drive! images playing at the back of my mind like a film without sound. yes, its not the end of life blah blah blah! but still, come to think of it, its gonna be sad. some much memories, so many things to do, so little time.

Like to Love
''I've realised i havent got the chance to talk to you,
& I get this feeling everything's goin down.
I want to say that I really really like you.
or must I wait till you wear a wedding gown?
I know this is not the end,
& we might meet again.
but until that day comes, I love you, my friend.''

2009-09-22T20:35:00.002+08:00

My baby Kira, the longboard.

Alright people! finally got my internet back at home buuuutttt, another major problem, the desktop is creating problems. currently using my dad's lappy.
aye, life? great i guess. ups & downs every now & then but, no big deal. school's alright. hari raya was ermm, good.
one very good news that i have to tell the whole wide world is, i just bought a longboard, named Kira. she's friggin beautiful. she's drop dead gorgeous & she's tha bomb! i fell for her the moment i step foot on her. i love her & i always will. hmm, i think? the past 2 days has been awesome. took Kira out, just cruisin' around, doing a lil' flips here & there, & just experimenting with Kira, getting to know her better.

ya know, the feeling of getting what you had always wanted or have longed for, is idk? no words can describe that feeling i guess. easy said, im very very very very happy.

i love you very much Kira.

2009-09-11T16:56:00.002+08:00

at em's place right now. with fadhila.
uh huh, this blog is dead :D
rock on humans!

2009-08-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

aight, prelims are over for me.
i'll be expectin some bad news on next week on my results.
fasting month gonna start soon.
n levels too.
got an offer for a longboard for 50 bucks ONLY on the net. it looks pretty decent for a secondhand board. gonna think it over whether to bid on it or not.

2009-08-16T19:37:00.004+08:00

nothing much about Shakir lately.

suddenly have the urge to study. exam mode, ON!

chemistry & bio paper tmrw. gonna flung chem, i know. but bah, idc.

im falling in love with Geum Jandi. so ibbeuni! oolalala!

thats all from me.

"the beatiful night sky, full with stars.

here i am thinking of fast cars.

but i bet she's thingking of why men are from mars.

as i lay back & listen to the fan oscilerating,

i wonder what time she will be sleeping

& of who will she be dreaming.

*inseert name*, into my world she came.

and i know this poem may sound lame.

but i asked myself ''will things still stay the same?"

2009-08-10T18:55:00.002+08:00

nothing much to post really. didnt go out on national day, sorry peeps.
went for a game or two of pool at bukit timah with some of ma niggaz. & now, at ahmad's crib.
hmmm, i miss photography. gonna pick that up again after my N. and and, imma buy a fishboard for sure after the N. cant wait for that. i know you probably think im crazy, but wth, life's a gamble.

ok here's something for MJ/siti latipah/jagiya/baju/misai/sepet/aryna.(hahahahahah!) the past few days, getting closer to you, has been a blast. staying up late, texting each other & all, it's been great la k. tell you the truth, everytime you asked me whether im sleepy or not, i actually was, very very sleepy. hahaha. and dudette, you gundu sia! I WANT BIG BIG BAJU, THICK THICK MISAI AND SEPET EYES. eat that up, sucka! :D

2009-08-07T15:37:00.002+08:00

Ahmad's house the place. ahmad so black, cant see where he is, only his shirt moving around the house. fadhila emo-ing on the couch. alson is in the room, so fat & alone. farris just came.
just came back from national day celebrations. was fun. i beat farris in the table tennis competition, AGAIN! haha. i met Dini earlier. i saw her from across the street & called her. haven't seen her for a very long time. hope she's doing fine.

i dont wanna care about people's life anymore. i mean, i have my own life to live. i wanna be part of your life but, what's the point man. thank you for your presence.
i've been feeling weak & tired for the past few days. (stopping smoking at one shot is hard. but it's not impossible.) prelim's in a few days, not really prepared for it yet. oh yeah, my art is done! i can relax and do my prep work.

take care, people.

2009-08-03T13:47:00.002+08:00

short update here.
currently in the art room. finally had the chance again to surf the net. ah, life is great now.

i feel great every single day. farris is down with fever. & so is my bro. he puked last night & he looked so lethargic. just hope he gets well soon. imma finish my papercut soon, very soon.

had a stomp performance last saturday. was my last & it was a blast.

till here, goodbye

seeing you smile is the one thing i would die for.

2009-07-23T10:41:00.002+08:00

aye, im just so lucky that aini brought her laptop to school. currently having art. mdm fat's not in school due to some reasons. studies have been alright, except for maths. school has been great. according to my calculation, i think imma finish my art just before the deadline which is next week. my papercut coursework is turning out good & im happy. friends & i still fooling around after school. i need break from the heavy duty stress im experiencing. till here. goodbye & thank you

2009-07-21T13:30:00.002+08:00

yeah, it's confirmed. no more internet. fieza say hi bebeh! ;D
currently having english lesson in school. schools has been up & down for me. blah blah blah. need to go. till i get the chance to use the comp, bye

2009-07-05T16:09:00.002+08:00

I'm still suffering & suffocating without internet at home. currently at Hadi cat's house using his laptop. have been having fun with mates for the time while i'm away.

n level in a few months. n level art coursework has to be handed in by the end of the month & i'm only starting my papercut soon.

till my internet comes back, see ya!

2009-05-31T18:36:00.002+08:00

Falling in love with sunsets.

i've got a few quotes stuck up on the wall behind my desktop saying ''your future is not in the hands of your teachers. your future is in your hands''. and another saying ''it's better to look ahead & prepare than to look back & regret''.

i spent the whole day, just thinking about Abdul Shakir bin Abdul Samad & these few lines. i thought hard & deep till i came to the point where i said to myself 'hard work will eventually pay off'.

2009-05-28T23:11:00.002+08:00

A long & tired day. pretty much worned out by the time i got home.
Firstly, went out with Mdm Fat, Izzuan & Farris to send some n level art stuffs to the idk what place is that. while waiting for our turn to go in the room, we were checking out some chicks from other schools. hahah, boys will be boys man. just checkin 'em out, nothing more. then headed to west coast & had lunch, Mdm Fat's treat before going back to Chestnut. the journey back was enjoyable. me, sharing my phobia of big tyres when i was a kid & the others sharing their phobias too & we made fun of each other. we even watched bananas in pyjamas in the car. lame show, but oh well. after the end of school, had a councilor investiture thing. didn't take pictures but hung around in the hall watching with my googely eyes. then went out for awhile, saw Dini. then went back, watched the staff versus students game which the staff won 3-2. good game, worth watching. after that, had the syf thank you dinner. took a couple of pictures before getting bored & joining peeps at the back of the concert, eating a whole lot of junk from the buffet. then stick around for a little while before taking a tour around the school compound in the dark. scary, what akif & i saw gave me goosebumps. waited for the rest, & went straight to bp, had "dessert" before going home. had a good day, actually. there are more behind the scene stories.

2009-05-24T22:31:00.012+08:00

An Evening With Norah

i did went out with Norah today. we practically talked non-stop. so yeah, we made our way down to keppel bay & we shared some things with each other. the scorching hot sun didn't really bother me. we watched the sunset & we cracked a few jokes here & there before heading to vivo for dinner. we went around searching for burger king since she really wanted to eat there & we ended up getting lost. we went up to this dumb looking security guard to ask him where burger king is & he showed us the way there. so after munching, she had a tummy upset. funny. we board the bus & chitty-chatty till it was time i needed to get off. yeah, i had a great day with her, catching up on things, sharing things with each other. thanks for today.

2009-05-24T11:43:00.003+08:00

yesterday was ermm, alright. went to Sungei Buloh with the same faces, enjoying the scenery there while trying our luck at fishing. for some of us, it was our first time fishing(like me). well not really, i just never tried throwing the rod before. & so yesterday i tried & its embarassing to admit, but my hook got stuck on the tree two times while trying to throw it to the sea. so for the few hours we were there, we only caught a clam. sucks, i know. hahah. well there's always a next time man.
so today's Sunday. the wheather looks pretty good for going out. i text Norah last night. haven't seen her for quite awhile now & surely, there's alot to talk about between me & her & everything that had happened & is happening around us. so yeah, currently waiting for her to text me.

2009-05-21T09:20:00.002+08:00

anyone up for a game of table tennis with me?

haven't been updating this blog much lately. just couldnt find the time to slot in words onto the screen. well, the exams are over & im relieved. brought home the school's camera until next week. giving me the oppurtunity to go out, taking pictures to free my mind. i've been enjoying my days with peeps playing table tennis & all at ahmad's place. & i still have a few more days left to enjoy before really working my ass off for the prelims, then n level. June holidays are coming. which means, more brain digging to do.

2009-05-15T21:59:00.002+08:00

finally, the weekend is here. i needed this time out more than anything else right now. the last papers would be on monday. chem & maths paper 2. easy-peasy for me. cause imma sleep for the whole time.
imma go shopping tomorrow, buying myself something. probably a shoe i guess. hope Suhaimi's coming cause if not, i'd be a sad shopper going around alone.
currently reading chicken soup for the teenage soul which is very inspirational cause there's nothing much in mind or to do right now. oh yeah, Malaysia's got its first swine flu case. it's confirmed. its reported that he/she flew in from the states & contracted with this disease. so to all those 'every weekend' malaysia go-ers, ya'll better becareful aight. i know i may sound like your mum but wth, just be careful

2009-05-14T20:36:00.002+08:00

this week has been mess, really. i am totally screwed. the exams were drop dead difficult. well, to me it was cause i didnt do any real revision except for flipping through the pages of my textbook without getting anything into my brain. monday & tuesday went by just fine. celebrated my mum's birthday. my brother, his gf, father & me waited till 12 am when she went to sleep on tuesday morning to give my mum a surprise-on the bed-party. i was so happy to see my mum smile like she had never smiled before.

but the last few days hasn't been great at all. i just couldn't keep my mind on the exams. alot of issues has been bugging me. i feel so mad, i feel so angry.

well for today, i had my 3 hours of intense drawing & painting which ended up like a piece of crap. i lost my art file about a week back. & i definitely didnt know what to do for the exam earlier. i mean, i lost my drawings & all. how do you suppose i make something extraodinary out of nothing? i feel like i've dissapointed Mdm Fat alot. all i ever wanted was to make her happy. i've been trying my best but idk man.. shit happens.

2009-05-13T17:04:00.002+08:00

sometimes, things are just not meant to be. i cant stop that.

2009-05-09T20:05:00.003+08:00

I've been lazing around at home like one pig. i was taking this saturday afternoon as an oppurtinity to have a good rest. but Ahmad called me in the middle of my sleep & he was being an irritating bastard. so i just put down the phone & went straight back to sleep.
I think Mdm Fat is gonna be so pissed off with me cause i lost my art file. i told her about it & she said i almost gave her a h(art) attack. hahaha. it totally sucks when you've been putting alot of hard work on something & suddenly it just go missing. i guess this is what i get for stealing all those pencils from people. karma. well, i didn't really steal em', i just.. borrowed them but i forgot to gave em' back.

tomorrow's Sunday. Uncle Jerry would be spending the day with us tomorrow. he invited the boys of my family to play basketball with him. in my mind, i was like "basketball? what in the world?!". so much for basketball, he even wants to watch Star Trek with us & my mind was going "STAR TREK?! out of all the movies, why star trek dude?" my family has never been a big fan of basketball nor a fan star trek. we have never watched basketball & we hardly watch those weird star trek shows. but trying out new stuffs would be cool though, considering Uncle Jerry, a very outgoing, spontaneous & hilarious man, inviting us. BUT i still think star trek lovers a weirdos! but im not saying my uncle is weird. wait, maybe he is. no, idk.. oh well, americans!

2009-05-08T20:27:00.000+08:00

for what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

2009-05-07T21:55:00.002+08:00

i dont know how the hell that lady got into my blog. but its alright.

everyday is a challenge & for 15 god damn years, i've lost 80% of the challenge.
meaning, i keep wasting every single day of my life. i really need to do something with myself. if there ever was a teevee show called extreme makeover for my attitude, i would gladly take part in it. & for 15 god damn years, i've been sigh-ing at the end of the day, everyday. yeah, so that is why, i am so gonna make a change in the way i do things in my filty classroom. by hook or by crook, i must bloody listen to my teacher & do my work. i dont want to be a failure! i know, talk is cheap. but i know i have that determination, perseverance & endurance somewhere deep down inside of me just waiting to be called upon. so this is the best time, i can use this hidden abilities. wow, im talking as though i have super powers.

my days have been really hectic. soccer, school e.g.

i dont wanna talk about anything else. its really stressing me out, thinking about all the other things that is happening around me.

2009-05-07T16:26:00.003+08:00

Surpise, surprise!

teehee [:

Yay! I hacked into your blog. Okay, not really ah. Hahaha.

Shakir can't post anything here right now cause his computer spoil. I miss him so much cause his bloody bills haven't paid yet. -.- Now I have no one else to text except for Emily. Haha. All the people in my contacts are like deadzxcs.

Hmm, let's see.. Shakir has been very busy with alot of stuff. School, soccer, etc. Today, he went to get his class t-shirt. [Yay for him!] Haha. !!! Idk what else to write. Idk what's on his mind these days. I gave him this letter just recently and he hasn't said anything much about it. FOOL. Anw, I know his on his way to Ahmad's house right now wasting his time down there. Go home lah! Go work out so one day I would see a beautiful body before me. Haha, kidding. Okay, Im gonna stop here cause I've got no idea of what to write anymore. [:

Bye peepos!

You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be. Bear in mind that I couldnt afford to lose someone I've learned to care about so much.

I love you,

Abdul Shakir

2009-05-04T18:53:00.002+08:00

the exams today was a total mess for me. for Eng paper 1, i did section two but i dint do section 1. section two was the letter writing. so yeah, i finished that first. then came section 1, which is composition, i chose question 3 which is on integrity. so i decided to do a story on love for integrity. i was writting with so much confidence that i would ace it. there was 30 mins left on the clock & i only did 1 & a half page. i quickly read through my essay & i said to myself "what the bullcrap am i writting about?" my essay on love totally went out of point from the question, integrity. so, i crumpled up the paper & threw it away. by the time, i had about 20 mins left, i decided not to re-do it. & i know im gonna flung my English paper for the first time. paper 2 was quite alright but i slept halfway through the paper, only to wake up with 45 mins left but i managed to complete it.

i spent time with Jeni & this really cute baby girl. we had fun, adoring her.she had the cheeks of the fattest sumo wrestler and her eyes were like a cat's(in a good sense ah). she didnt speak a single word to us. she just kept quiet playing the toy cars with us. then when her maid wanted to leave, i said goodbye to her & finally she spoke. she said in this really cute, soft, gentle voice ''bye!" & she ran off. this adorable lil' kid is, Mya.

2009-05-03T12:00:00.008+08:00

4 non-blondes

cikgu roz: teringatlah zaman diorang sec 1

mdm fatimah: skrg semua dah bujang-bujang.

Alo creatures!

when was the last time i actually wrote something here? like one month ago?

i finally had my blog fixed, of course, thanks to that lovely emily. my blog went haywire a couple of weeks back. something went wrong with the template.

well for me, i've been doing fine. alot has happened over the past few weeks. im back in good terms with ms roz. the 4-non blondes(me,farris,izzuan,aryna) had lunch @ swensens along with mdm fatimah & ms roz. we all had a good time, talking about the past, problems, relationship & so on..

my school had our annual cross country & i came in 28th. yeah, sucks but oh well, i did try my best. the school went crazy after the race. it almost felt like our last day & we had to do something nonsensical & absurd.

for yesterday, it was the first time after a long while that i went to ochard. alot has changed. more chicks(hehe), more flicks, more new places. we went for our school's president councilor's sweet sixteen birthday party. i wonder why she wants to make it so grand. it was held at ochard parade hotel, in a suite. abit squeezy to fit about 30 invited people but we had fun though. then there was this dancefloor game thing. & ''WOW'' is all that i can say.

so here i am, sticking my butt on the computer chair & glueing my eyes to the screen on this humid sunday afternoon. imma cut my hair later on in the evening cause it's really long & abit uncomfortable especially in this kind of weather.

2009-05-03T00:49:00.001+08:00

Hello Shakir ^^ Ha ha, your blog is done. And, don't go to the template for no reason ok. Rofl, kidding. Ha, anyway you may find this skin v familiar because its my skin and its also Iqah's. Sorry uh, its really hard for me to find a skin that is suitable for you and plus i couldn't find your previous skin. ): But hope you likes it uh, anything can just look for me.

And, your tagb, i changed it already, i will text you the info alright. The song, you can change it if you want, but if you don't know how to, let me know. I'll help you with it, fred not. :) Ok la, till here then, i'm off to Pet Society! :B

Last long with Jenica, lotsa love,
Emoily. :)

2009-04-15T21:42:00.003+08:00

i call her bushuk eventhough she smells really nice.

Jeni lost her phone & now i feel so lonely cause i cant text her. i went around the whole school searching for her phone & looking for her art teacher cause she misplaced it in the art room. she's one clumsy girl, always putting her things lying around somewhere. well i hope someone had already found her phone & return it back to her. haha

this friday is my school's annual prize giving day. the following day, will be a stomp performance @ senkang. ah, it has been so many monkey months since i last performed.

2009-04-12T18:22:00.002+08:00

2009-04-11T23:36:00.004+08:00

I had a great time with the dudes today. we chilled out at al-azhar, sipping up our drinks to cool our throats in the hot sunny saturday afternoon. we shared our problems one by one & also, re-living the good old days. time to work hard now homies.

oh yeah, everyone seems to be crazy over korean girlbands like for example wondergirls.

2009-04-11T21:37:00.001+08:00

I love my gemok/ahlian/pinoy/bushuk girlfriend

2009-04-09T22:15:00.002+08:00

Waterfall, falling water.

sometimes letting your feelings rush down like a waterfall is good.

what im saying is totally random.

april would be the last month of enjoyment & after that, no more!

hmmm, i used to have alot to write but my mind is stuck. alot have been happening.

currently not in the mood for smiles. i used up all my energy in the soccer interclass game earlier which my class eventually won 4-1. im gonna hit the bed soon.

oh ya, my family loves adam lambert-the guy in american idol. (ah, another random statement)

2009-04-05T22:37:00.006+08:00

The perfect sunday.

the rain didn't stop me from having the 'best sunday of the year'.

i did a photoshoot around botanical gardens of two of aini's friends. jeni & aini were also there. i made new friends & it was great taking their pictures & after it ended, im really satisfied with the pictures. afterwards, i went to keppel bay with Jeni & wow! i was stunned & amazed at the scenery there. it was magnificent. the best place to free your thoughts & problems. i had fun with Jeni there. i would love to go back there soon.

2009-04-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

me vs the world

the past two days has been a struggle for me. a struggle to gain concentration in studies. issues after issues. its hard to keep this, hot-tempered, fuming with anger & rage, side of me at bay when i feel that the everybody is pointing their fingers at me. i blow my top off with teahcers easily cause they make a small matter, a big one & they dont talk nicely. well yeah, they have the rights to do so but they should know me, i tick off easily. & yeah i may be in the wrong but they could have talked to me nicely. but the end of the day, when i sit down & think about it, i asked myself ''who the hell am i to be rude to them''. another part of the story was the preassure im feeling. i just find it really hard to control my anger especially, when everytime i try to change & do the right things, something will come & mess it up. & i'll be back to square one again. but i know now that it's all part & parcel of growing up. thank you mdm fatimah & mr raj for the motivational speech & making time just to talk to me.

2009-03-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

the first half of the day went by smoothly. & then came the second half of the day. everything just started to go up & down. firstly, i couldn't find the courage to speak up to my bushuk when she was right infront of me. we had some sort of disagreements & arguements a few days back. but im glad that i eventually apologised to her. i couldn't take it any longer. it felt so different when we didn't talk & avoid each other. she cried on my shoulder & that was also the first time i saw her cry. i would never wish to have another quarell with anymore.
once that was settled, i went up to the band. they were having their stomp practise while waiting for their SYF results. & which they said, they themselves did pretty well & deserve a silver. so, the moment i picked up the pair drumsticks on the floor & to the moment i struck the sticks on the snares, i felt a feeling i haven't felt for a very long time. beating on the drums with passion, playing along side your peers who has grown together with you through out the last few years & basically having fun.. that was what i've been missing. then when it was time for the syf results to be announced, the band sat in one big circle. for awhile, i felt like i was still a part of the family. but then i came to realise.. no, it wasn't right for me to sit with them in the circle. as they waited & waited, i could see the anxiety on their faces as they waited patiently. for one of them, it was hard to face the fact that the band might get nothing close to a silver. but being the person i am, i went up to her, and i said ''no matter what the outcome is, you know you've tried your best. you should never think that it is the end if you don't get what you want. it's not what you get, it's the sweat, tears & the sacrifices you had to make, to get this far.''
& then came the results. the leader of the band, was the first to know about it. & she broke down in tears when she get to know the band clinched a bronze. yes, bronze was what they never wanted. they wanted more than that, a silver. but sometimes you have face it, you can't ask for too much. nevertheless, i am so proud of the band. i wish i was still a part of them. sometimes, i look back & i appreciate what i've gone through with the band. & band will always be kept in my book of memories & i would always be willing to share the story of this band & tell them about the lovely people in it to anyone.

2009-03-28T11:09:00.002+08:00

Alot like friends

2009-03-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

i've been busy with school.
lessons are hard to understand. & it sucks when the rest of the class knows what their doing except for me cause i haven't been paying attention last year. it's hard to catch up. especially Maths. whatmore, i have to accept the fact that i must pass Maths to get to sec 5, which is a killer. but im willing to do whatever it takes. even if it means that i have to stay back everyday to study, revise & just do more work which fyi, i have been doing it already. it kinda suck in a way cause i dont get to spend time with Jeni in the afternoon like i always do. but she completely understands my situation. & i appreciate it alot. but nevertheless, i would still try my best to spend time with her.

2009-03-21T12:28:00.003+08:00

I sat & I thought.

for all my years of living, i never realised this one mistake that maybe, i've been doing alot. for what i did or for what i've gone through, it may have some impact or a big impact to myself. but i've never came realise what a bigger impact it might have done to someone else.

i don't wish to elaborate further. it just brings a sad part of my past.

2009-03-20T21:23:00.000+08:00

Dear bushuk,

I am sorry for what I have done. I might be wrong but you can’t blame me.
You see, the world won’t move to the beat of just one drum.
What may be right for you, may not be right for some.
So I’m writing this letter to say how sorry I am.
To make it up to you, you can spend an hour in heaven with me.
(you know, I know.hehehe)

Yours truly,
Shmelly.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

2009-03-19T20:24:00.002+08:00

i had fun with Mike, Ahmad & Farris ealier. we went swimming at Jurong. we were like flippin people out of their floats on purpose & pretended it was on accident. we're mean & we're foolish. i met Ainiciner there & we had a little chat catching up with things that have been going on in our lives.

ah, imma finish up my homework tmrw afternoon.
imma watch a movie with my family this Saturday. & my family's not gonna adopt a cat anytime soon. we have to fix a gate or something so that the cat won't go out & some other cat-ish things. like a place for it to shit. then, we could adopt the cat. i wonder what we're gonna name the cat.

i miss my pinoy lady very much :)

2009-03-18T08:43:00.003+08:00

i havent started doing my holiday homework. lazy & i'll do it later in the week.

today is Farris's 16th Birthday. wow, we've been friends for 10 years.

its kinda unbelievable. imma meet him & the rest later on.

& aliff is coming too. aaah, the troublemaker. i missed him man.

2009-03-17T12:22:00.003+08:00

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2009-03-15T14:16:00.002+08:00

first things first, hello earth-lings!

there will be a new addition to my family. so there's me, my mum, dad, brother, brother's gf & the other one will come really soon. the last one will be very special cause it isn't a human. its got claws like lions, roars like tiger & breathes out fire like dragons. what is it? ok, maybe im over-exaggerating it. the newest member of my family will be a pet cat. the whole family has agreed to this & we'll adopt it next week. i hope my parents won't change their mind. it's been ages since we took care of cats. we love cats.

my CA results has proven that i have improved in my studies. but just because i got 7th in class, im not gonna slack around & hope that i can pass my N. i gotta continue working hard.
if you say you want to work hard, then mean what you say. don't just talk like you're fucking confident & then you give up half-way. you might as well have said that all you talk about is crap & bullshit.

2009-03-12T21:46:00.003+08:00

I don't know what the future holds for us.

but I know my feeling for you is so true & strong.

I LOVE YOU.

From your soft gentle touch to your lovely smile to your loving heart.

I'll be there for you when the world seems to be too much.

2009-03-11T19:42:00.002+08:00

Sunny side up

my days have been great & it could never get better. i am learning with every single lesson & im proud of myself. a modelling agency called me earlier in the week, asking me to come down for an interview. & im kinda speechless. a question of 'to go or not to go?'. well, im just gonna take my time thinking about it.

Have you ever felt the world slowing down while you're with her? when all you can hear is the breath & the beats of her heart pounding agaisnt your chest while you gazed deep into her dark brown eyes. & for one whole minute, it was only you & her in the world, nobody else. & you just know that, that moment was the moment you can't have with anybody else but her. & when her lips caresses yours, you feel like your soul was jumping out from your skin in delight. it's what i call the ultimate moment. & in that moment you'll have a feeling that you'd live & die for. a feeling that you'd kill & save for. a feeling that i can never have with anyone other than her.

2009-03-06T20:39:00.003+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow

a few things have been happening in my life lately. firstly, my favourite beloved teacher, Mdm Fatimah, had her birthday a few days back & we celebrated it with her, buying for her a cake. next, my classmates just can't live with one another. in other words, conflicts & verbal fights are happening every now & then. thirdly, the school is a mess. fourth, i have just cultivated reading into my daily life. and last but certainly not the least, Jenica is the sweetest.

2009-02-28T21:52:00.003+08:00

i can't get enough of this lady.

well, i used to have alot to write down here.

i've been feeling pressured & confined by hundreds of issues. i cant seem to get my work done on time. & also, i feel so guilty towards her, my pinoy lady.

2009-02-25T20:38:00.005+08:00

"I wanna make you smile

Whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh, it could be so nice growing old with you....

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let you hold the remote control..."

2009-02-25T20:23:00.002+08:00

i havent been feeling well for the past few days. the sneezing & coughing to me, is like menstruation to girls. yes, i'll have mood swings every now & then. but less so, i would say. my days have never been better. Jenica has been my everyday routine & i enjoy every moment with her. im still having fun with the usual people like i always do. for studies wise, well, i must say that there's at least an improvement in it. ive been paying alot of attention during lessons. & i hope i can get this rhythm going till the end of the year.

2009-02-21T22:56:00.006+08:00

I love today like i have never loved anyday before. i had many reasons to smile about. i really had fun during the photoshoot @ Chinatown, especially with all the club members. we love every single outing we have been to so far. it was a very good cultural experience, going into the indian temple & then to the buddhist temple. so yeah, i partnered up with Jeni & took a few hundred pictures which i am very lazy to upload it all here or on facebook.
after Chinatown, we all went to Vivo to have our lunch & also to check out the National Geographic Store there. i dont want to mention what happened on the other half of the day. im just gonna let the pictures do the talkin'.

Yes, it's got something to do with her. it's 'The Hot Topic' that peeps are talkin about.

2009-02-20T21:37:00.003+08:00

'I love you'. three words seems to be enough to tell how much she means to me. she makes my trouble go away with every gentle touch. but there are somethings about me that even she can't control. i have to learn to control it myself. im sorry for the way i reacted today. i just dont wanna let you go, babe. the few 5 seconds we had the other day was something special for me & you. & somehow, it felt like there was just only me & you in this world.

2009-02-20T21:04:00.004+08:00

i feel very proud of myself cause i saved the lifes of 30 young students from possibly getting burned in the classroom. it was really chaotic & funny. it all started when Mr Teo told us to clean our drawing & vandals on our classroom tables. so we had this turpentine & tinner solution. every drawing on tables were almost cleaned. then i sawsome of my classmates, crowding at one corner. i went to them to check it out. they were actually spraying perfume on the table & lighting it up with a lighter. then the fire grew bigger & Iszehari was trying to stop the fire, using a cloth which was used to clean the tables(with turpentine which is flameable). eventually, the cloth caught fire & he threw the cloth on the floor. then Mazhab was like jumping up & down on the cloth trying to stop it. the whole class started to laugh(enjoying the free show when they dont know that the fire could actually spread.) meanwhile, i ran up to the other corner of the class & took out the fire extinguisher & dashed, jumped over tables & chairs, back to the corner where the fire was. the funny part was when i wanted to spray the fire, but the button wouldnt budge. so i was like "eh, why cannot? why cannot?!" obviously, i was in panic. but Firdhaus, in a calm & gentle manner said "wait, relax, havent open yet." WTH?! in my mind, i was like 'im trying to put out a fire as soon as possible & youre asking me to relax?' & yeah, the whole class laughed, enjoying the free show, not knowing that they could have actually been burned to death in a few minutes time. my class is a like a zoo full of retards. i dont mean it. haha.

so there you go.. my heroic story of saving my friend's lives.

2009-02-17T20:56:00.002+08:00

I've been so busy these past few days that i didnt care less about anything else around me. somehow, i feel so trapped. so many things to do, but so little time. nothing much for my school days though. it has been pretty much normal, only really stressful. i've been slacking alot in my english & that kinda sucks.
something to look forward to; Photoshoot this Saturday @ Chinatown. imma lend the school's dslr camera. aaah, i cant wait.

"I'll be the dope & you'll be my drug"

2009-02-15T20:49:00.003+08:00

Ah, my aunt is finally coming over to Singapore. the last time i saw her was like 3 years ago when i went to California for holiday. i miss her & her unstoppable mouth full of comments & compliments. im just kdding. i miss those times when i was in the States. i so fcukin miss that place. & her dog, Diesel who passed away 2 years ago. i still remember saving Diesel from a poisonous spider. he was about to touch that freakin spider & i pushed him away. i wished i could have stayed there longer to take care of him. well, i hope she brings my favourite chocolates from the States, which is sears chocolates if im not wrong. i cant express the taste of sears chocolates melting in your mouth as you munch & crunch it in. aaaaah, so irresistable. you cant find sears chocs here in Singapore.

i didnt ask for anything when my aunt called. but i just hope she'll at least buy a small gift or something. i cant wait for her arrival

Family potrait; brother,father,mother,aunt,uncle & me

2009-02-14T21:56:00.004+08:00

Yes, its bloody valentine's day. you could have probably seen shtoopid men carrying flowers on the streets of Ochard road. not only Ochard road actually, basically anywhere.
i went down to esplenade for the first time in a long while. not much of a change in people who makes their way there every saturdays; typical faces & people. my brother just went out. probably with his gf, celebrating. and Jeni is at esplenade right now with her family. it sucks & its hard to accept the fact that i cant get to see her on almost every of the weekends.

2009-02-13T22:29:00.005+08:00

Make everyday, Valentine's day

shitty is the one word to describe my feelings for these past few days. i dont know why, but it feels like everything i do, hasnt been good enough. maybe i need to do something more. or maybe, that is the best i can give. whatever it is, i will do my best at everything imma do.

Happy 16th Birthday to Erma Rahimah. may you grow wiser & taller.

its only week 6 & im already feeling the pressure of 'N' levels. its so hard to pay full attetion in class. tomorrow is Valentine's day, & im not gonna celebrate it with anyone. but probably slack with peeps somewhere. i saw shtoopid men carrying flowers while i was on my way back home. how shtoopid can they get man?! im not tryin to offend anyone of you but cant you see that the florist are gonna go to the banks on monday, with a big wide smile on their faces when you buy those flowers from them at such a high price during these period of time? hahaha.
but wth, Happy Valentine's Day anw.

I will make the best out of every single minute, of every single day that I spend with you.

2009-02-11T21:20:00.002+08:00

Thanks Jeni, for the subway cookies. her favourite cookies are now my favourite too. somehow, she would always cheer me up when im not in the mood. whether its giving me sweet stuffs or making me laugh, she still makes my day.

Chestnut lost to Swiss Cottage 2-1. wtf man!? yeah, so our hopes of going to the 2nd round is gone. but the best part was getting my wrist injured. i cant even turn my wrist around. i'd probably go for a check up over the weekends.

oh and, Emma finally talked to me.

Valentine's a joke. Everyday is Valentine's Day for me & you

"yaksokhae, najoldae nol ttona. saranghae"

2009-02-10T20:50:00.002+08:00

Dearest Emma,

Im glad I had friend like you. you were always there to listen to my problems & I've tried to lend my ears to you too. I've never had any grudges or any hard feelings towards you before. you were more like a sister to me. like a mother too. I was touched after you came up to me & smack me in the face because of what I did in the past. It made me realise how much you cared for me. thank you very much, Emma.

But because of one stupid incident, we're treating each other like total strangers. I was never angry at you, im just really dissapointed at you. Please, for heaven sake, talk to me cause I dont want to loose a friend like you.