When nothing goes right, go left.

QeelyWeely texted me this..
"Ini khas untuk Abdul Shakir sahaja. Qeelia hendak minta maaf
kepada Shakir kerana Qeelia telah mainkan perasaan Shakir dahulu.
Qeelia tertunjuk perangai Qeelia yang macam sial kepada Shakir juga.
Terima kasih kerana selama ini Shakir sabar dengan Qeelia. Qeelia
senang sekali dapat kawan macam Shakir. Sebenarnya, Qeelia masih cinta
kepada Shakir, tetapi Shakir sudah putus asa dalam permainan cinta.
Jadi Qeelia harus hormat dengan keputusan Shakir. Erm, harap Shakir
memaafkan semua kesalahan Qeelia terhadap Shakir :'("

Qeelia, you're sweet as ever.

since i cant reply you through text msgs due to overdue unpaid bills,
here's my reply to you:

"Ini juga khas untuk Asyrafizwani sahaja. Shakir memaafkan Qeelia untuk segala kesilapan yang Qeelia telah membuat kepada Shakir. Maafkan Shakir juga kalau Shakir pernah membuat Qeelia sedih atau marah. Shakir tidak pernah bersabar dengan orang lain, selebih daripada macam mana Shakir bersabar dengan Qeelia. Shakir juga mencuba untuk memahami Qeelia setiap kali. Mungkin kerana Shakir sangat sayang sama Qeelia. Kasih sayang Shakir terhadap Qeelia tidak pernah berubah semenjak dahulu sampai sekarang. Shakir menghilang harapan untuk bercinta lagi kerana Shakir fikirkan yang Qeelia tidak mahu bercinta. Itu sebabnya Shakir berputus asa dalam percintaan. Maafkan Shakir dan selamat menyambut Hari Raya!"

it's amazing how someone would sacrifice so much just for the one they love.
this video is really sad. for better viewing, watch it after my song ends.

didnt go to school today. stayed at home & clean up my bloody messy room.. haha.
tmrw is freakin hari raya! i cannot believe it! -_____-''

im living a simple life now. i dont want what ppl call love. aku nk single mingle jingle!
sape nk kluar ngan aku during raya, just give me a call or something. tapi kalau korg nk kluar couple2.. kirim salam uh. unless ade org nk jadi partner aku uh. hahaha.
&& im highlighting my hair after the 2nd week of raya! yeay!

for all my muslims peeps out there:

Selamat Hari Raya. Maafkan aku kalau aku pernah membuat kesilapan atau berkasar bahasa terhadap korang. aku harap korang boleh maafkan aku. jadi next year aku boleh buat kesilapan lagi. hahahah! nanti bile2 aku dtg umah korg k. make sure korang siapkan makanan semua untuk aku. && jgn lupe duit eh! hehehehehe! :D

i decided to post some picts of my school life. what you are abt to see is performed by professionals & should be attempted by anyone, anywhere, anyhow. its just for entertainment!

i know im cute :)

PrettyPeter

im so lucky we became friends.

Parker,Emmabel,Ares Jack
(muke kite same kan?)

i also decided to make a lyric of my own. as you can see, it sucks. haha.
went to GAYlang ytd. it was like a hardcore gig mosh pit! (not really uh) hahaha. i was sweating like one mother. nothing interesting actually. after that, went to hougang in a lorry. i chilly-willy there for awhile before going to teck whye & chilly-willy again. reached home ard 7 am. bathed & slept like one mother. woke up ard 5, chilly-willy & waited to break fast. tomorrow is mother tongue paper 1 & 2. i dont know what to study! haha. && fernando alonso won the F1. well what can i say, i was the one who coached him to become an F1 driver. not to forget micheal schumacer, i was the one who inspired him to become the best F1 driver in the world.

heeeeheeee!

No Other Compared To You

still feel ur touch every moment,
you're always appearing in my dreams.
when i look deep in your big brown eyes,
its clear, that there's no other.. compared to you.

(chorus)
i will always be there for you
im gonna stand here till you make me move.
you're the one i love.
& i hope you feel the same way too.
cause you bring light into my darkest days.
you make me happy in every way.
& i will always, always be there for you..

you were always on my mind,
in each & everytime.
your smile, i will never forget.
i'll never wish that you'll hame to leave.
cause there's still no other, compared to you..

(chorus)
i will always be there for you
im gonna stand here till you make me move.
you're the one i love.
& i hope you feel the same way too..
cause you bring light into my darkest days.
you make me happy in every way.
& i will always, always be there for you..

so please dont ever leave me.
i hope things are like what it used to be.
just open your eyes & see,
that you mean the world to me..

(chorus 2x)

had my english paper(1) & (2). i'd say it was quite alright & i think i can pass. I THINK UH! haha. met up with alang for awhile before going home. still the same old him. went home, got changed, & went to geylang with my family. it wasn't really that crowded uh. i saw like a dozen familiar faces but i didnt bother to tegur them. haha. bought my baju for raya. light brown! wasn't the colour i wanted. i asked for a yellow,yellow dirty fellow! but nvm. tmrw, queensway with my mum & dad. buying a shoe! & after that maybe geylang again with MANG ESAI & the rest.

sometimes i asks myself..
was it really love that i was going through?
sometimes i ask myself..
what is love anyway?

fuckin hell? why am i being so loved sick. this is not me.
"hidup mesti gamble"-thats me.

bila2 apk!

school was like fuck during recess time. i was so damn freakin mad at izzuan. he was like "eh shakir,shakir!"*slaps my face* who wouldn't get mad? i dont care whether he slapped me lightly. & i dont care whether he was trying to crack a joke. he had no right to touch my freaggin face. i've been patient with his attitude from like long time ago. i've been patient with him when he teased abt my real father. would you get mad if somebody teased with your father's name when your father had divorced to your mom when you were young & you have never ever spoke to your father or even met with him face to face before. && you don't get the chance to experince a real blood father's love. would you get mad!? i bet you will! after he slapped my face, he looked at me & laughed like a total dork. i stood up, & push him once & scolded him 18932758346536589732! pushed him again & scolded him again. i almost punched him in the face. never have i been this mad at a friend before. && i ain't gonna lend my phone to anybody who's gonna text 10 text msgs to their boyf/girlf anymore. i've had enough of m1 sending me msgs saying that i have an overdue bill. its okay if my bill was 100+. but my bill was freaggin 400+! my phone is not a bloody public phone! u think my mum is a freakin money maker!? to fieza: its okay.

emma cheered me up. thx uh besty!

QeelyWeely<3

i cant believe it that its almost raya! $$$$$. yeahooo! haha.

nothing for today!

its 12.32am in the morning right now. & i just woke up from sleep. i slept right after i broke fast earlier. currently talking with Qeely.Weely on the phone. such a FOOOOOOOOOL!

once upon a time, i lived in a hunted house. one day, as i was walking home, somebody accompanied me. it was the big bad wolf. the big bad wolf is such a fool! we walked pass the 3 little pigs house & we blew their house down! yeah! we rock! we also saw spongebob catching jellyfishes. his pet cat, gary was eating dust & patrick was sleeping. after that, we met up with the spartans. they were playing basketball & some were doing tecktonik. they are so cool. the big bad wolf & i shook hands with them. as we were shaking hands, my wife was walking across the court(JENIFFER LOVE HEWITT). i called her & asked where she was going. she said that she wanted to meet a guy. wth! i was so mad that my face turned red & steam came out from my ears. && i became the human torch & i barbequed my wife. after that, i went home with the big bad wolf. upon reaching my house, we saw a girl just outside my house. this girl had long curly hair, a cute voice & a sweet smile(you know who uh) i asked the girl why she was outside my house. she said she wanted to give me an apple. she passed me an apple & told me to eat it. i ate it & i fainted on the floor. then i went into a deep sleep. 700 dwarfs thought i was dead. they almost chopped my body into a million pieces & used my meat to cook mutton curry! theyre so bad. but before they could do that, a princess with long curly hair, a cute voice & a sweet smile came on a pony & killed the 700 dwarfs. i didnt know how she did that cause i was in a deep sleep but i knew what was happening uh.hahaha. she came up to me, & kissed me. i woke up & she was gone.
7 years later, i was still waiting for the princess who saved my life. i didnt get the chance to say thank you to her.
i wonder who she is. hmmmm.. :D

to be continued...............................

WHAT THE HELL AM I TYPING? hahahahahahah! a bed time story for Qeely.Weely..

"I wake up, open my eyes, and think of you...
I go to bed, close my eyes, and dream of you..."

came back home from school pretty early today. im really proud of myself. im making good progress in my studies. currently concentrating on my english, malay, humanities & art. these are subjects i can excel in. im as good as dumbshit if i dont pass these subjects. i can say goodbye to the rest of the other two subjects(maths & science).

time flew so fast this year. & i did a whole lot of wrong doings which i totally regret doing. im such a dickhead. but wth, what has been done is done. time to move on, shakir.

my class turned upside down durin chemistry lesson. most of my classmates(including me) were crushing all the old worksheets into paper balls & started throwing em' at one another. so there it goes.. world war 3! hahahaha.

"Ke mana saja
Kau berlari bersembunyi..
Ku tahu cintamu
Padaku teguh..
Takku peduli cara
Dan tingkah lakumu
Kerna ku takkan pergi
Jauh dari sisimu..
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu

Kan kubina sebuah singgahsana
Untukmu berlindung
Dari hujan basah
Pabila malam,
Ku termimpikan wajahmu
Takkan jiwa ragaku
Berakhir nikmatnya..
Dengarlah kasih

Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu
Kan kuserahkan segala kepadamu"

lyrics from Senyuman Ragamu-Gerhana Ska Cinta
an old favourite of mine.

at last i met that QeelyWeely fool after not meeting her for like a decade.(FAKE!) hahaha. went to city hall with her. i treated her CHIPPY! & she treated me oreo crush! haha. & thanks to her, we walked one big round ard city hall just to get to four stick:) but i dont mind taking long walks. hahaha. && the fool kept talking abt her perut & how painful it is. hahaha
aight, im lazy to write abt the whole day today. im just glad that i met her. i dont know why. heeeeheeeee:D
next friday is my english paper(1). well, i hope i do well in my exams.
*YAWNS!* im sleepy. goodnight world!

RAYA 07'

i cant wait for raya. hahaha. its the only time i can get a whole lot of money. i can get like ard 200 dollars ya know. apa lagi! shopping siol!

k enought abt raya. besok jumpe mang! maybe to geylang? town? i dunno?

today, i beat my own personal record for going back home early. i reached home ard 215. im proud of myself. hahaha. u can label me a goodboy now :D

i've been noticing the wheather lately. its getting hotter by day. i hate it when its sunny. it brings my mood down. i will feel so stuffy & stressed out & furious & hot-tempered. i dont know why. last few weeks, it was raining like hippos & elephants like almost everyday. & now, it feels like singapore is part of the sahara desert. seriously, PLANET EARTH IS GETTING WEIRDER!

i got to know Feeq Supersonic much more today. he's such a fool. he kept thanking me abt what happened just now. haha. its not biggy ok. thats what friends are for(:
i've also noticed that my teachers are slowly talking to me one by one & trying to talk some sense into me. mdm fatimah talked to me abt my problems & how i can occupy my time rather than i go out & all. she said "artistic ppl are very grumpy. & when they're mad, there's no use talking to them. they won't listen. like you!" hahaha. but she's the only teacher who treats me like a friend & the only one who believes in me. & she says "but the problem with you is, you are consistently stupid". hahahaha. she's such a fool.

"I LOVE YOOOOOOOOU~"

Just three little words
don't seem like enough
for someone whose smile
still brightens my day,
whose touch can make me forget
the rest of the world.
They don't seem like enough
for someone who's always been there
to celebrate with me
when everything goes my way
and to hold my hand
when my whole world
seems to fall apart.
But even though "I Love You"
can't express the depth
of my feelings for you.
I hope you know what's in my heart.

Diesel. its a son of a biatch. haha. a really cool dog. a man's best friend. may you rest in peace.

Happy Family.(Yosemite)

SNOWBALL FIGHT!

i know my face is like a small kiddo. c'mon, what do you expect? i was 13 back then.

he's drawing my bloody face. (disneyland)

he is so not Superman. take a look at his balls. its like sagging siol.(Hollywood)

chip&dale tree house. (disneyland)

CALIFORNIA 2006

bloody hell, i miss california alot. i went there about 2 years back. the place is like so cool. stayed there for one month & i felt like an angmoh already. hahah. i want to go back there someday. its totally different from singapore. dont bathe for one day, & you'll still feel fresh. i have stepped onto hollywood's walk of fame, rode the craziest roller coaster rides in disneyland, stayed in the country side of california. this are memories im not going to forget. im not trying to make you readers jealous or anything uh. hahaha. but seriously, u.s is so freakin cool. if i have the money, i would love to go back there & if possible, maybe live there.. big dreams huh? hahaha.

era didnt come to school today. shes such a fool. today, during mt lesson, my teacher called me out of the class & spoke to me personally abt my life. she was like so caring uh. but i dont want teachers to care for me actually. she talked to me abt why am i like this in school. as in my conduct. she wants me to pass & get promoted to sec 4 & she's desperately trying to make me study in class. && what made me move was when she said this "cikgu tk pernah give so much care & concern to student except you. i have never ever been so worried abt a student except you. & cikgu tk pernah sayang murid cikgu yg lain selebih daripada saya sayang awak. & i have never cried for a student except you, tau shakir" & then her voice started to shake & i could see tears rolling down her cheek like a bowling ball. hahaha. it was really suprising to see a teacher whom i know for abt only a few months, crying for me. it shows how much she cares for me. & im willing to try to be a better student(:

i want to change but.. i dont know uh. it's so hard. org kate "dah degil, degil terus" hahahaha:D

im going shopping with my family on the last week of puasa. cant wait. mama buying me baju kurung warna yellow, nike air max & i dont know what else uh. hahaha.

this friday, mang esai keluar. yessa!

nothing much for today. spent almost the whole recess time with era, walking around the school. haha. skipped mother tongue & biology lesson today. because i hate the teachers! hahaha. teachers just dont understand students like me! they are such a fool! went to cck with era, accompanied her home & then went to 250. lepak-ed for awhile & then went home.

QeelyWeely called my home while i was outside & my mum picked it up. when i got home, my mum said "tadi ade perempuan call adik!" then i asked "who?" my mum said "entah? suara mcm budak kecik. sape?" then i said "oh.. entah? budak kecik uh agaknye" hahahahahahahaha!
im getting my sim card this saturday. but i dont know when im getting a new phone.
Jenica's birthday is this thursday. well, i just want to wish her a happy advanced birthday! & last long with izad uh. haha.
&& emoily is a BIMBOTIC BIATCH! she has a itchy nonok! hahah!
its great to have a classmate like emoily. i appreaciate her company but she's stil a BIMBOTIC BIATCH! hahahahaha!

for QeelyWeely, when are we going to meet again? i feel like its been centuries since we last met.
she's such a fool.

HandsomeQeelyWeely walking down my street

this girl is a fool! hahaha. a fool that never fails to make me smile on my bloody face. she's my listening ear, always there for me when i have a problem to talk about. she's my mother, she cares for me. she's my teahcer, teaches me not to do the wrong things. where else can i get someone like her? you're one of god's greatest gift to me & i'll be lying if i were to say you mean nothing to me. when i'm with you, only the moment matters, nothing before or after that, i'd freeze time over and over again just to see you smile. <33333

she's not my girl. but i deeply care for her & i love her. :DDDDD

didn't do much today. i talked alot about love with my classmates. hahah. & i enjoyed my time during lessons where my classmates & i took videos of ourselves talking rubbish. hahaha. i asked 50 cents from almost everyone i knew in school. i didnt have bus fare to go home, so i asked around for 50 cents. & i got like 2 dollars. hahaha. accompanied emma to cck, & then went to bb with her & thasvin. we walked through alot of places of memories of me & norah. hahaha. i still cant believe what emma told norah on msn. hahah. emma is such a fool! OMG! ok drop the subject. my days are getting boring-er! i got like nothing to do everyday during school & after school. i guess i'll go home straight after school everyday, starting from tomorrow. anw, M1 is delivering my sim card to my house tmrw. i'll just need a phone & im happy already :D

currently waitting for that Qeely Weely Fool to online back.

"Can you be the air I breath...
can you be my everyday routine...
can you take me by the hand && show me what love is....?"

i stayed at home the whole day & helped mama do some housework. hahaha.
i tend to become a good boy at home. idk why. -_-''
chatted with qeelia almost the whole afternoon. she's such a fool.
it's been like decades since i last heard her voice on the phone.
& it's been like centuries since i last met her, face to face. hahaha.
i watched 2 movies without stopping today.(War of the Dragons & X-Men The Last Stand)
hahaha. im in such a good mood but im so bored.
well, all i could do is to look forward for tomorrow.-another boring school day.
i hope something happens in school or something uh. ok NO, i heard the police
are coming down to my school for some investigation. & i heard that they're going to
open up all the past cases & do further questioning. IF the police questions me,
i'll just say that i dont know anything :S

"I’ll give you 12 roses. The first 11 are real & the last one, fake. With each of the 11 roses, there was a note, it reads “I love you till the last rose dies”

It's 4.35pm & it's a saturday evening. omg, i just woke up & i cannot believe it im at home. hahaha. i taunted ytd at cck. && i lost my phone. FUCK,CB,PALABUTOH,MAKKAUPEHPUKI!hahahaha. i'm so fed-up with myself uh. that fool is mad at herself cause she think she should have talk otp with me that whole night so that i won't loose my phone. hahaha. you fool, its not your fault laaaaaaaaa. i was so careless that i misplaced my phone. agaknye toyol steal my phone tak? hahaha. & couldn't remember everything that happenned ytd night. alaaa, bile2 boleh curik handphone lagi apeeee. i want to call that fool but she tkde prepaid. i want to call her house number but i forgot the number. hahaha. i guess i'll wait till she calls my house number uh...
"Waiting for your call, I'm sick, Call I'm angry, Call I'm desperate for your voice..."
"Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
to make you mine, Stay with me tonight"
hahahahaha. the words from the song Your Call by Secondhand Serenade.
I want to go out. but im tired & i dont know where the hell are my friends right now && i didnt remember their numbers. hahahah. fug uh! i'll guess i'll just stay at home the whole day with my mama uh.

I went to school today. but i didn't learn a single thing in school again. the first lesson was social studies. mr raj was on N Level duty so he didnt come to class. the 2nd period was mother tongue. the whole class was supposed to do letter writting but me, farris & aliff(the usuals) were doing our own work at the back of the class. hahaha. i suddenly miss the attention my teachers would give me. it's really weird. they stopped bothering abt me eversince i started skipping school & all. they are such a fool! hahaha. after that was recess. i didnt puasa today cause i got menstration. so i went to the canteen & eat. hahahaha. at least i got an excuse for not fasting ok! :D after recess was chemistry. i didnt do my work & my teacher ignored me. wth! hahaha. i skipped the remaining two lessons of school & i went out of school. went to south view & lepak. today was such a boring day!

when will i meet that fool again?!

i miss her(:

i didn't go to school again today.
fuck uh. why am i so lazy? somebody tell me why!
i didn't do much today. i sneezed alot though..
this nose is killing me. i want to change my nose!
i didnt meet the fool today cause she cannot go out. you fool!
im performing in school tmrw.
hahaha. i cant wait -_-
i hope everything will go smoothly tmrw.
i miss that fool uh! although i get to hear her voice everynight,
i still miss her! hahaha. im such a fool.
& i heard that exams is like in 2 weeks time?! cb, i didnt even learn a single thing
in school.. how am i suppose to pass my exams?
this is the time when i'll start to panic. "HOLY SHIT!" hahaha.
i dont know what is going to happen to my life.
i dont expect success to happen just like that. i should work hard for it. & study. not fooling ard in school. but what the F*** am i doing?

today i played catching with the teachers in school. hahahah. it started when the teachers wanted to do an attire check after the morning assembly. my hair was long & i tried to pull my sideburn behind my ears, tapi tk boleh. hahahaha. so, my form teacher pulled me out to the front of the parade sq along with the rest who had long hair.like cb uh. then when my dm dismissed the rest of the school, i cabut from the ppl who had long hair while the dm was not looking. i straight away went to my class. then my friend called me, he said 3 teachers were looking for me. hahaha. so me & my other two friends decided to play hide & seek/catching with the teachers.
hahahaha. it was kinda fun playing catching with them. while i was running away from the teachers, i slipped & i feel down. & i tripped my friends also. hahaha. then we decided to cabut skolah. & so we went out of the school through the front gate like as though it was our bapak's school. & then the rest of the day was boring. hahaha.

tmrw i want to meet that GOBLOK/FOOL! she said she want to give me medicine for my stupid flu. fool; kalau i eat that medicine & i still feel the same, i'll give you one chokeslam! muahahahaha! fake. i keep sneezing the whole day. its really freaking irritating. if i continue being like this, i think i'll sneeze my eyeballs out one day. hahaha

"Maafkan aku menduakan cintamu
Berat rasa hatiku tinggalkan dirinya"

Mang Esai,Cheeky,Peter Esai

Thursday:

i lepak-ed at south view then met up with the fool at lot 1.

hahaha. we sat down for awhile at macs & talked crap.

then something came up. so the fool went to the library.

then at night, i went to the fool's house.hahaha.

i watched film horor together with the fool's family.

the show was crap but funny. hahah. after that, i met up

with Mang,Cheeky,Degil,Fyna & Kechyk at south view.

it was 1++ in the morning & we were telling ghost stories.

my bulu ternaik siul. even my armpit hair. hahahaha.

then at abt 3++ we decided to go to cck park. otw going there,

we were chased by the police. hahaha. it was so funny.

me & degil ran away easily. while the rest got caught by the police.

they were screened & were asked to go home.

hahah. we met up at lamsoon where we lepak-ed until sahur.

the rest went home while I accompanied cheeky cause he kena

tendang kluar umah. i feel so sad for him.

Friday:

i went home at 945am.

when i reached home, i poo-poo-ed & i took a bath.

i quickly changed my clothes & i went to holland village

to buy cheeky & mang breakfast. "aku pandang korg brother,

thats why aku blanje korg.hahaha" then i went to south view &

i passed cheeky the food. i called the fool & asked where she was.

she said she was waiting for the 67 bus going to kkh. i decided to accompany

the fool to kkh to meet her aunt's baby. her aunt's baby was so cute!

hahahah. infact all the babies were cute. that fool said she wants to name

her aunt's baby, Shadow. & i asked the fool what kind of name is that?!

hahaha. the fool is such a fool. after that, we took 67 back to cck.

CB, all of the passengers in the bus were like so kiasu. sialah, all of them

mcm kanchiong spider. hahahaha. ogay, when we reached lot 1,

we went to long john to buy food from there since we nvr puasa.

& then we went to lamsoon where we met my friends & we eat our food there.

after we ate, i sent the fool home. haha. she's such a fool.

i lepak-ed with Mang,Cheeky,Era,Kechyk & Fifi for the rest of the day

until 11pm. where i accompanied Cheeky for awhile.

before going back, i passed with a ciggarate & 5 dollars. he took the

rokok but he didnt want to take the 5 dollars. he said "kalau kau

pandang aku brother, kau simpan itu duit." aiyoooo~ i feel so sad for him.

i wish i can help him but he doesnt want help anybody.

"Words have started wars & ended them.
Words have made marriages & caused divorces.
Words have brought nations together & brought down tyrants
Words have done great good & caused the worst evil.
Yet words cannot describe how much i love you"

my grandmother will be staying at my house
till the end of the fasting month! well,
she broke her arm & she can't do her usual stuffs
like bathing, cooking & all. so my mum told her to
live with us for the moment. she'll be sleeping on my bed
so i'll be sleeping in the living room.
my mum told me to take care of her cause she's working,
my dad's going to the army & my brother is working too.
wth? i dont know how to take care of my grandmother laaaaaa!
hahaha. && i can't go out that often anymore. "SHIT ma nigger!"
oh well, i guess i'll just have to bear with it.