i deeply believe that a life should be lived like a movie. you're the director of your own life. you decide what to do the next second, the next minute & so on. there comes a point of time where you become the hero, when everyone looks up to you. they trust in you. an example in life, when people trust you to keep a secret, keep promises, keep faith. or maybe when you have to lead your team, be it in camps, school, work. those little things in life makes you a hero of your movie, of your life. then there comes a point when you become one of the bad guys. or in other words, a villain. for example, you burst out at someone because you are mad & you make them sad or angry, either way, it makes you a villain for a short time in your life. then you can change it back to becoming one of the good guys. or maybe you're the type of person who is the backbone of the movie. for example, remember aunt may from spiderman? the one who gives advises & takes care of peter parker? uh huh, maybe you're like her. the supporting kind of role in someone else's life. any ways you want it, live it. its your life, it's your movie. you call the shots.

you have a bad memory that you really want to get rid of? take that as a bad episode of your movie & leave it behind you, move on. make a new one. an even better one. where things don't have to turn out the way they did before.

& always give a little thinking about all the coming episodes of your movie, your future. when you think you're done with this episode, proceed to the next one. try to achieve what you've set for the upcoming episodes of your life.

Get your butts up, start moving.

waddup mofos.

i've been in & out of the toilet twice. thanks to the lontong & prata yesterday. heh. Jeni's gone. boohoo! yeah, she's dead. nono, she's at phil. haha. i just got to know, there's a cut-off date for my pay. but idc, as long as i get the money. supposed to have CSO today but i gave an excuse saying i have to help with the packing & moving of my grandma's stuff. which is totally fake la. heh. lazy, yes lazy. gonna meet Akif. then meet idk who's that guy's name. wait, lemme think. oh yes, Farris. & Suhaimi i think. they say they're going to this hardcore gig @ bugis & one of our schoolmates' performing as well. so whatever, just tag along lor.

a simple hello from me to you.

how's it going out there? im good. been working alot. had alot of ups & downs these few days. i lost my wallet which has treasure in it, for example, my geum jandi pic, pictures of friends, my skinhead picture, condom(which is a souveneir i got from a friend)heh. got pissed off with the people at work. that's probably it. heh, all on the down side, nothing much on the bright side. still, i try to be glad with what i have through my pals.

oh, i've started writing songs recently. well, not really songs but just lyrics. im always with a foolscap pad. you might never know when inspiration would strike you to write a song. what do i get out of writing bulls? hmm, nothing a really. its just one way to let something out, to tell people about what i think of. if you know me, im someone who wants to let everyone know bout everything that i think is worth telling. who knows where song writing can take me. the next time you see a famous artiste's music video & you see my name under ''lyrics by:", do not, i said, do not be surprised. heh. dont mind me, this is just one of my crazy dreams la.

Happy Birthday Piggy. thanks for being in my life. though you were a pain in the ass for the last 4 years, be it crazily in love with me or irritating me. thanks i guess. heh. see ya later.

have you had this feeling that you have done something way beyond what you could achieve? well hell yeah, i had that feeling yesterday. oh god, it felt so good. Hadi came over at 12 midnight. we were prank-calling people till 2am. & we went out. him with his skateboard & me with my longboard. went down the slope at holland v. which was alright for me. then we went down to sixth ave & my god! the slopes were steep & the adrenaline rush going down the long stretch of road was totally unimaginable. i went faster than i have ever did. how i wished there were more of us. we were spotted by the men in blue a couple of times but i guess it was our lucky day. got back home & skadoosh, im dead. one of those great rides of the century.

aye peeps!

weekends are here, woohoo. heh.

imma go swimming tmrw with Akif. i know ya'll think that me & him are like gays from the stories i've told you guys about but really, no. we're not. totally straight man. i had cramps after swimming only a couple of laps the other day. gotta work my muscles.

i went to bugis earlier with Fana & Fad. god damn it, they took like an hour or so just to buy a shtoopid dress. but ah, i understand. we saw this old guy staring at the display items infront of the sex shop in the junction. i was just wondering if he could be one of my friends in future.

aight, i have work from next tuesday till friday. which means im free on monday, i'll go for Em's birthday. im still thinking of what to buy from her. i think she would expect me to buy her something since she took all the heart pain & heart aches a few years back. so its like my turn to repay her? hmm, probably get her a PIGGY bank? suweet! maybe i should. how does that sound Em?

currently webcam-ing. weehoo~

sup!

went to follow the Stomp troopers for their performance @ River Valley Pri. & god, they were so hyped up. i didnt know whether i was seeing monkeys jumping around the stage or was it them. some even looked like they were being tasered by the police.(i mean it in a good way aight) the crowd were asking for an encore. wow, first time in history. they totally rocked their balls off there. the best part of today was in the bus, on the way back to school. & wow, what a party we had. all of them getting a taste of clubbin'. "mini clubbin" the bus driver putting on some beats for us & all of us went haywire. poppin' screamin' lickin' sweatin'. hah. havent had this much fun for a long while. oh what a day.

hope ya'll doing great out there.

ok here's one for Jeni. sincerely from me. heh

you know babe, i have what i've wanted. & that's you. she's reading this. she's thinking what the hell am i gonna write below. please do not guess what imma type down here, cause its gonna spoil the fun.

ok fat ass, if you really really do love me:

1. if you're sitting down right now, please stand.

2. put your left arm up, straight up.

3. now put your head closer to you left arm, like leaning against it.

4. put your nose closer to your pits.

5. i know it's gonna smell bad but,

6. say this to yourself right now: i love shakir so much!

7. read the words below.

8. you're an idiot if you did what i've asked you to do.

9. god i love you so much.

10. yeah, i really do.

heh, i know i've been acting like a fool & really annoying to you, but i just love to see you get annoyed. you look so cute! & looking at you laugh when i do funny faces makes me happy.

waddup dawg!

i've been working for the last few days. it sucks waking up at 5 in the morning everyday, dragging my lazy ass out of bed, shivering after hitting the showers & leaving the house with a kilogram of eyebags. but wth, its all for the good. now i know how my mom feels & i totally understand why she looks half dead after coming back from work. so, work has been quite alright. i've been doing blood pressure for many different people. it's really stressful when your patients/customers/clients aren't satisfied with their blood pressure readings. they'll be like ''eh why my blood pressure so high?! its usually normal. i think your machine spoil la''

i'll get pissed off deep down sometimes. but hey, you cant just ask them to fuck off or shut the hell up, they're your customers anw. on the brighter side, i get to meet with alot of different people, work with different people & getting to know my collegues better. they're friendly people. somehow, everyday, there'll be funny moments i'll experience at work. good job!

aight, i've been missing alot of my friends. catch up with them sooner or later.

ok here's what i wanna get after i get my first pay. a new longboard! uh huh, check me out lads. i'll be crusin' with a new beautiful longboard. heh.

goodbye suckers.

sup!

first day at work @ ITE Simei was alright. met a few people which i will be working with till i quit the job. what can i say about the job? hmmm, quite relaxing? it can be rushy sometimes though. i learnt fast & im getting the hang of it. but the only problem is multi-tasking which is one of my weakest asset. working at Tuas tomorrow & at the office till 7pm. prepared? not really but im looking forward to it. its gonna suck waking up at 5 in the morning(suweet!) every single weekday but fuck it ah.

Ah, i dont get Singapore nor the typical people you see on the streets.

to Jeni:

im not gonna see much of you neither are you gonna see much of me.

you know i miss you & i'll try to make myself free.

&& you know im doing this for you & me :)

today, monday, 2nd of november, has got to be the luckiest day in my entire life. well, not just for me, but for Akif as well.

so this is how it went. i had to meet my officer in the morning, blah blah blah & then i met akif at yew tee. bumped into aryna & fieza at yew tee point. had lunch & off we go to bugis. had trouble finding the work place. me & akif looked like idiots. more like gay idiots actually. so we finally found the place. & we had our interview. damn hilarious. you should have listened to our 'pretending to be fluent english speakers'. which we are fluent sometimes, especially Akif. & fuck it, we got the god gamn job, god damn it. suweet! so that's just only part one.

afterwards, i met my lovely pinoy fat ass girlfriend & her bimbo korean friend, Jennifer at starbucks before going to Ion. the four of us were walking past some food stalls & Akif heard someone calling out ''free food'' & us, being singapore citizens, what else, kiasu la! we went straight to the restaurant & we ordered food like nobody's business. suweet! Akif ordered this 12 piece chicken combo which he shared with the four of us. my tongue & lips were burning the moment i finished my 2nd chicken. Jeni's eyes were watery the minute she finished her first. poor baby. the place is called Boncho 4 fingers chicken or something. its on B3 in Ion. they'd probably still be giving out food for free.

so wtf? got a job & free food?! it's not like everyday that you can get something like this man. lucky faggots.

i start work on wednesday. ya'll won't be seeing much of me. have a great holiday!