Buried Myself Alive
Friday, October 31, 2008 @



this song is called Bella Luna. its a really realxing song.
sung by Jason Mraz. he's freakin talented. this is probably
the best song that he's ever created. his voice is one of a kind.
im a big fan of him, no kidding. enjoy yaw!

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Thursday, October 30, 2008 @
yeah, i just found out about The Summer Obsession. their songs are great!
came to school today & the guard didnt let me in. cause my hair was coloured. haha.
so i went to bangkit & shaved my whole hair bald. omfg, i cannot believe it!
i looked in the mirror & i couldn't believe that what i saw was myself. -___-''
suhaimi said that my head looks so much like a ball. you bloody boob bastard!
hahaha. but to me, i think it's okay to do something different once in awhile.

i'll bet that my pretty butterfly is gonna be shocked when she meets me. hahaha.

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Wednesday, October 29, 2008 @

im going to call qee, butterfly. hahaha!
i met my pretty butterfly yesterday. we watched High School Musical3. the show was great but Zac Effron wasn't really romantic like he was in High School Musical2. hahaha! && i still think that im hotter than him! ok, im saying this cause im jealous qee said that he's hot. hahahahaha! such a fool!



went to the juvenile court earlier today.
i had to sit in the lock-up room for a few hours while i wait for my mum to bail me out again.
bloody fuck, they just want my mum's money. the goverment is so bad. haha.
the officer told me that if my mum dont want to bail me out, i would sit in boys home remand till 19 nov. & i was like F*&#$()*&$(@&&$*($&%^!!!
lucky thing my mum bailed me out. oh well, at least i get to spend time with qee before she leaves for australia.
after going to court, went to queensway & bought a shoe & i saw rini & dolly.
haha.


&&& i'll be shaving my hair bald.
:D

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Sunday, October 26, 2008 @
i read qeelia's latest post. she's worried about me. i would most probably call her right now.
but you should understand my situation right now. i cut my hair again today. so its like super short to me. then i followed mum to grandma's place & i watched high school musical 2 while they talked about me. today was boring. totally boring!

qee,
i miss your touch,
your smile,
your voice,
your foolishness,
your everything.

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i've been rotting at home this weekend. all i do at home is eat, sleep, computer & teeeveeee.. nothing else. i dont know how much longer im going to be like this. its killing me. haha. i cant even be on the housephone for too long. i got a scolding yesterday while i was on the phone with qee. hahaha.

im still waiting for my dad to die. muahahaha!

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Friday, October 24, 2008 @
tomorrow is a saturday & i think im going to miss another saturday.
i talked to my mum. i said that i want to go far-east plaza & buy a shirt. & she said no.
wtf! she just said the word "NO", nothing else. that is like so not her. if she says no, she would tell me why. this time, she just says the word 'no'.
oh common, next wednesday is my court date & she wont even give me a little freedom?
i just wish everything was back to the way it was when i could go out & come home late.
this was all thanks to my dumbass dad. i wish he had never came into my mum's life.
i wish he'd die in his sleep tonight. seriously, it will bring joy & happiness into my life if he will die soon. some of you may think im cruel but wait till you step into my shoes & experience how i feel.
he's just my step father. he's not my bloody real blood father. who is he to touch me? i can be myself & fight & hit him back but i was patient. cause i knew i was in the wrong to do what i had done. he said that he had done everything that i had done while he was at my age. if he says that, it means that he should understand what im going through & fucking understand me. & he alway talks about how his parents treated him when he was young. well, times have changed.. that was your generation, this is mine. UP YOURS DAD!!!
i just want to have freedom & go out of the house. cause when im outside, i become myself. i become more open. but when im at home, im not my usual self.

&& im dying to meet qeelia before my court date cause im scared that i'll have to go boys home & i'll miss her birthday which is next month. &&& she told me that she'd be staying in australia for a month soon. yeah, i would miss her but i told her to go & experience the life there. it'd be fun.

*imy & ily, Asyrafizwani!

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Random pics..
fullerton bridge(2007)
aku step cool je! haha
qee, im sorry to tell you that she's my scandal.

spiderman,spiderman!
mang,cheeky,peter


Thursday, October 23, 2008 @
today was the last day of school.
my peeps & i made alot mess in school. we threw toilet papers all around & placed colgates & hand soaps on lift buttons, chairs & door handles on some of the classrooms. hahaha.
this is called mischevious.

my results were bad & i have to attend IRP in order to get promoted next year. it sucks!
i'll be an obedient & a good boy for this period of time till my court case is over.
have to earn my mum's trust back again.

&& Qeelia can't go out :(
i want to meet her before my court date.

Wednesday, October 22, 2008 @
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cintaku bermula tanpa akhir.

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i was in lock-up at jurong police headquaters for the last two days. it was alright down there.
& on the 29th, i have to go to court.
i thought about alot of things while i was in the lock-up cell.
i thought abt qee alot. & i miss her so much. just two days of not meeting or hearing her voice can drive me crazy.
i made my parents angry. they confiscated my phone & they dont allow me to go out anymore... such a biyatch sia! i dont know what to do with myself right now. im in a state of mind that i cant even think properly.

Bby, i'll meet you soon. i'll try my best to contact you aight.

Sunday, October 19, 2008 @
Lucky by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Calliat


Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

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my uncle passed away yesterday evening. may he rest in peace. went for his funeral today. helped to carry his body into the grave. it was my first time doing this. pretty scary uh actually. my mum kept nagging at me abt my hair. common uh, the holidays are coming.. let me enjoy uh! what is bloody wrong to keep long hair? she's such a fool. i told Qee about this & she said that she finds my hair very rimas also. she's another fool! dont know how to side me isit?! hahahaha. tkpeeeee.. since u want me to cut my hair, i will cut it tmrw k.

im going to school tmrw, just to check out the condition of the school now. haha. after school, meeting QeelyWeely. heeeheeeee! :D

"Yesterday's smile plays with tomorrow's laughter"

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yeah, i know.. taufik batisah!
i used to be a huge fan of him.
errrr, today was so boring uh. i walked around far-east alone & i saw this shirt that i want to buy. the shirt is really cool uh. im going there again next week. "lets go shopping!" anw, i got a new number. im using prepaid now. cause my bill is still unpaid & i cant contact anyone. i met norah for the first time after a century of not meeting her. i asked her "mane menghilang?" then she said "i evaporated into the sky like water droplets" -___-'
she's still the same old norah that i used to know. hahaha.

Qeelia! iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouILOVEYOOOOOU!
hahahaha!

& anw, you guys should hear the song called lucky by jason mraz feat. colbie calliat. its like the number 1 on my list. && the lyrics is really meaningful.

im already missing Asyafizwani! :)

Saturday, October 18, 2008 @
went out with qeeeeeeeeeeeeee!~ spent the whole day with her, went for her cousin's birthday at east coast.. & i had fun with her uh! i just love being close to her. & i love her. i bought a shirt for myself that she chose for me. thank yoooooou! & thanks alot for today. it was fun eventough i was sick!

i love it when she smiles.
i love it when she's close to me.
i love it when she holds my hand.
i love it when she plays around with my hair.
i love it when she runs her fingers up & down my back.
i love it when our eyes meet.
i love it when she laughs at my stupid faces.
i love it when she becomes a fool.
i love it when we took a slow walk along the beach.
i love it when i came to her house in the middle night & just look at her from her window.
i love it when we talk crap & we'd end up laughing.
i love it when she calls me in the middle of my sleep.(actually no uh. hahaha!)
i love the way she makes me feel each time. its like im on top of the world.
i love it when i know now that there's nothing more greatter in this world than her.
i love it when she loves me.
& i love her in every moment of our absurdity.

Friday, October 17, 2008 @



"i love you"

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 @
weeehooooo~
i met qeeliaaaaaaa! yessa! its like that first time i met her sia. haha.
she's such a fool. i know you cant resist my smooth skin. padahal i just bathed when i met her sia. of course la i smell good & my skin is so smooth. hahaha.

i think that wakeboarding is the coolest shit.. its so freakin cool. i wanna try it one day. im not trying to follow my brother but i just wanna try new things aight. its like you can feel the wind in your hair & the water splashing at your face. it feels so awesome & cool. haha.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008 @
chey ada budak bebual fanatic ngan aku siol pat tagboard. eh kiwek... nk brani, brani luar uh siol. tkmo nk kecoh2 pat internet. common uh.. kau tk puas ngan aku pasal nonok. eh favour uh siol... prangai tkmo boy-boy,girl-girl uh. aku tkde masa siol nk gado. aku bukan samseng internet.

im sorry im talking this way. i react this way when im angry. eh fuck uh, this past few days has been filled with so much problems. kecoh uh.

Monday, October 13, 2008 @
this past few days has been fuckin busy. problem after problem. i didnt come back home ytd. taunted at cck with farris, cheeky. talked about alot of things. they're the only people i can share my problems with right now. im so glad i have friends like you guys. haha. i was lepak-ing ytd when qeelia suddenly came across my mind. i just had the urge to call her & to just hear her cute voice. hahaha. we talked on the phone for a few mintues. we talked abt what actually happened between us. i really miss her alot. i can see that she really meant her words this time. what made me want to leave you was that i had enough of being patient. im sorry i didnt have patience with you, Qee. just give me time. i have a lot to think abt..

Saturday, October 11, 2008 @
kecoh-kecoh raya!
AresJack. my bestest friend, my listening ear.
a football team. hahaha
a couple just for a day.
inilah MPH.. Members Paling Hebat!
AresJack,PeterEsai,Sadeeq. ini semua funky!!
kecoh-ness!

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went jalan2 raya with kechyk,fifi,naz,hanif,sharifah & syazwan. kechyk is so cute. she kept talking with me abt love. kechyk J A H A T! hahaha.
im going out with her tmrw.. i mean today.(its already 1.25am)

im totally confused! Ares Jack! where are you when i need you most?.. aku nk bebual dgn kau!
its a very serious issue. it a matter between life & death. hahaha.

"dia atau dia yg harus ku cinta?"

Friday, October 10, 2008 @
its an absoulute gurantee that i will fail my exams. i didnt even write a single letter on my geog paper. except for my name uh. hahah. if i ever have to retain next year, i'll drop out from school. im stupid, i know. hahaha.

jalan raya was fun. there was about 30 of us going from one house to another. a'an said "ni bukan gi raya, ni gi riot!" hahaha. me & era was a couple for a day. i sent her home eventough it was 11pm & i was fuggin tired & sleepy. aku tahu aku gentlemen! heeeheeeheee!

its going to be 1am soon & tomorrow is my chemistry & biology exam. for all i know, im not going to do those two papers & im going to sleep during it.

"I like you very much..."

Wednesday, October 8, 2008 @
i dyed my hair. i highlighted it apricot mocha. its like reddish brown i think. haha.
i had my maths paper(2). i was sleeping for almost the whole 2 hours. did 5 questions which was freakin easy, put my pen down, laid my head on the table & went to sleep. i slept like a pig. hahaha. its a 100% gurantee that i will fail maths! tomorrow is my geography paper which ends at 930. yessa! after that, im going to jalan raya dengan mph. yay, dapat duit raya! heeeeheeee!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008 @
sebenarnya, aku dah naik bosan dengan prangai kau. aku selalu bersabar dengan prangai kau. kali ini, ku ingin kau pergi.

Tidakkah engkau tahu sayang
betapa ku sayang padamu..
Engkaulah insan yang ku cinta untuk selama-lamanya..
Tapi disebaliknya apa yang kau berikan padaku
kasih dan sayang kini tiada..
pilunya di hatiku...

Kini kau berubah...
kau tak seperti dulu...
Mengapa sayang mengapa engkau jadi begini...
Kini aku menyesal menyintaimu
kerna cintaku dipermainkan secukup-cukupnya...
Hampalah hatiku dalam percintaan...
Engkau membuatku tidak mahu cinta lagi sayang...

Mengapa engkau permainkan cinta yang sudah kita bina...
jikalau tak sayang lagi berterus terang padaku...
Janganlah engkau menyiksa aku.. .
Tak sanggup lagi ku menanggung
dugaan cinta yang kau beri terhadap diriku...
Sakitnya hatiku, sampainya hatimu...
kau tidak melayan diriku seperti dahulu..

Cuba kau rasakan apa yang telah ku rasa..
kini pasti kau juga akan menyesali cintaku..
Kini airmata pun mula mengalir..
Engkau masih belum berubah..
engkau tetap sama..
Kini aku meminta maaf kerna hatiku dah tertutup untuk dirimu ohh sayang..
Lepaskan aku, bebaskan aku.. pergilah sayang, jangan kembali lagi...

Cintaku Dipermainkan...

"seperti bunga dedap tidak bau"

Sunday, October 5, 2008 @
MUM! When are you going to pay my telephone bills?! cause i'm already suffering & i may die sooner or later. hahaha. its really hard for me to contact people now. especially that big short fat fool.

ive been trying to do my art but my mind is filled with so many thoughts. & its really fustrating.
i hate it when my whole family is at home. i dont know why.

i love that Big Short Fat Fool!
sry i cant call you. i'll call you at night.

"if it ain't this, i'd be something else."

Saturday, October 4, 2008 @
pictures from yesterday...
kawan baru, Teera.

AlangCrazy,AyieStar,PeterEsai

tyqa


its saturday! mother cow! im stuck at home with nothing to do except posting. i wanna go out but it seems like nobody's going out today. im friggin BOOOOOORRRRREEEEEEEDDDDD!~
god, pls help me. its killing me & i dont want to waste a saturday by staying at home,rotting.
haha.

Friday, October 3, 2008 @
So Contagiously

im so jealous at all those people who has a spammer on their blog. wth? hahahaha!
seriously, its like everyone has a spammer spamming their blog, & i dont. i feel so left out you know! bloody hell, can someone just please spam my blog?! hahahahahah!
next tuesday is my art exam! shit! i havent do a single thing. & i dont have a clue on what to paint. went shopping ytd. bought a cap & a shirt. ni bukan nk show eh qeelia! haha. qeelia & i have been talking awak-kite to each other. haha. it reminds me of norah & how we used to talk like that when were................ :D
well, that was like months ago..
i want to meet Asyafizwani uh!


"& sometimes we paused for too long, then we realized it's already too late."

Thursday, October 2, 2008 @
State of Mind

second day of raya! im not going to anybody's house today since my family is busy.
i woke up this morning with my saliva dripping out from my mouth. it was very disgusting actually. hahaha. im going to south view to lepak later.
its been really confusing these past few days. you seem to change my mind just like that.
& im amazed by you.
KITA SAYANG AWAK! heeheeeheeee!


"Everything you are is everything to me."

Wednesday, October 1, 2008 @
first day of raya uh babe!
food was delicious, everybody looks lovely & green packets kept coming to me.
hahahahaha! collected alot of duit raya! woke up early in the morning, had breakfast with family, got dressed & mintak maaf my mum & dad. went to my grandparent's place at bukit gombak first. from there, went to my 2nd granparents place at teck whye with my brother. alot cousins there. they say i grew alot.. blah,blah,blah.. after that, went to bukit merah which is my grandma's place. stayed there longer.. as you can see, i got 3 grandparents. which means, more money uh! hahahaha!

aku rindu QeelyWeely.

Abdul Shakir
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''Kir"
14 June
Holland V

Big dreamer, yes i am.
I live my life to the fullest.
I sing, I dance, I entertain.
Art & Photography, i loike!

Music


The Love - The morning light.


Monkeys & Donkeys

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