When nothing goes right, go left.

"I wanna make you smile

Whenever you're sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All i wanna do, is grow old with you

I'll get you medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh, it could be so nice growing old with you....

I'll miss you

Kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you

Feed you

Even let you hold the remote control..."

i havent been feeling well for the past few days. the sneezing & coughing to me, is like menstruation to girls. yes, i'll have mood swings every now & then. but less so, i would say. my days have never been better. Jenica has been my everyday routine & i enjoy every moment with her. im still having fun with the usual people like i always do. for studies wise, well, i must say that there's at least an improvement in it. ive been paying alot of attention during lessons. & i hope i can get this rhythm going till the end of the year.

I love today like i have never loved anyday before. i had many reasons to smile about. i really had fun during the photoshoot @ Chinatown, especially with all the club members. we love every single outing we have been to so far. it was a very good cultural experience, going into the indian temple & then to the buddhist temple. so yeah, i partnered up with Jeni & took a few hundred pictures which i am very lazy to upload it all here or on facebook.
after Chinatown, we all went to Vivo to have our lunch & also to check out the National Geographic Store there. i dont want to mention what happened on the other half of the day. im just gonna let the pictures do the talkin'.

Yes, it's got something to do with her. it's 'The Hot Topic' that peeps are talkin about.

'I love you'. three words seems to be enough to tell how much she means to me. she makes my trouble go away with every gentle touch. but there are somethings about me that even she can't control. i have to learn to control it myself. im sorry for the way i reacted today. i just dont wanna let you go, babe. the few 5 seconds we had the other day was something special for me & you. & somehow, it felt like there was just only me & you in this world.

i feel very proud of myself cause i saved the lifes of 30 young students from possibly getting burned in the classroom. it was really chaotic & funny. it all started when Mr Teo told us to clean our drawing & vandals on our classroom tables. so we had this turpentine & tinner solution. every drawing on tables were almost cleaned. then i sawsome of my classmates, crowding at one corner. i went to them to check it out. they were actually spraying perfume on the table & lighting it up with a lighter. then the fire grew bigger & Iszehari was trying to stop the fire, using a cloth which was used to clean the tables(with turpentine which is flameable). eventually, the cloth caught fire & he threw the cloth on the floor. then Mazhab was like jumping up & down on the cloth trying to stop it. the whole class started to laugh(enjoying the free show when they dont know that the fire could actually spread.) meanwhile, i ran up to the other corner of the class & took out the fire extinguisher & dashed, jumped over tables & chairs, back to the corner where the fire was. the funny part was when i wanted to spray the fire, but the button wouldnt budge. so i was like "eh, why cannot? why cannot?!" obviously, i was in panic. but Firdhaus, in a calm & gentle manner said "wait, relax, havent open yet." WTH?! in my mind, i was like 'im trying to put out a fire as soon as possible & youre asking me to relax?' & yeah, the whole class laughed, enjoying the free show, not knowing that they could have actually been burned to death in a few minutes time. my class is a like a zoo full of retards. i dont mean it. haha.

so there you go.. my heroic story of saving my friend's lives.

I've been so busy these past few days that i didnt care less about anything else around me. somehow, i feel so trapped. so many things to do, but so little time. nothing much for my school days though. it has been pretty much normal, only really stressful. i've been slacking alot in my english & that kinda sucks.
something to look forward to; Photoshoot this Saturday @ Chinatown. imma lend the school's dslr camera. aaah, i cant wait.

"I'll be the dope & you'll be my drug"

Ah, my aunt is finally coming over to Singapore. the last time i saw her was like 3 years ago when i went to California for holiday. i miss her & her unstoppable mouth full of comments & compliments. im just kdding. i miss those times when i was in the States. i so fcukin miss that place. & her dog, Diesel who passed away 2 years ago. i still remember saving Diesel from a poisonous spider. he was about to touch that freakin spider & i pushed him away. i wished i could have stayed there longer to take care of him. well, i hope she brings my favourite chocolates from the States, which is sears chocolates if im not wrong. i cant express the taste of sears chocolates melting in your mouth as you munch & crunch it in. aaaaah, so irresistable. you cant find sears chocs here in Singapore.

i didnt ask for anything when my aunt called. but i just hope she'll at least buy a small gift or something. i cant wait for her arrival

Family potrait; brother,father,mother,aunt,uncle & me

Yes, its bloody valentine's day. you could have probably seen shtoopid men carrying flowers on the streets of Ochard road. not only Ochard road actually, basically anywhere.
i went down to esplenade for the first time in a long while. not much of a change in people who makes their way there every saturdays; typical faces & people. my brother just went out. probably with his gf, celebrating. and Jeni is at esplenade right now with her family. it sucks & its hard to accept the fact that i cant get to see her on almost every of the weekends.

Make everyday, Valentine's day

shitty is the one word to describe my feelings for these past few days. i dont know why, but it feels like everything i do, hasnt been good enough. maybe i need to do something more. or maybe, that is the best i can give. whatever it is, i will do my best at everything imma do.

Happy 16th Birthday to Erma Rahimah. may you grow wiser & taller.

its only week 6 & im already feeling the pressure of 'N' levels. its so hard to pay full attetion in class. tomorrow is Valentine's day, & im not gonna celebrate it with anyone. but probably slack with peeps somewhere. i saw shtoopid men carrying flowers while i was on my way back home. how shtoopid can they get man?! im not tryin to offend anyone of you but cant you see that the florist are gonna go to the banks on monday, with a big wide smile on their faces when you buy those flowers from them at such a high price during these period of time? hahaha.
but wth, Happy Valentine's Day anw.

I will make the best out of every single minute, of every single day that I spend with you.

Thanks Jeni, for the subway cookies. her favourite cookies are now my favourite too. somehow, she would always cheer me up when im not in the mood. whether its giving me sweet stuffs or making me laugh, she still makes my day.

Chestnut lost to Swiss Cottage 2-1. wtf man!? yeah, so our hopes of going to the 2nd round is gone. but the best part was getting my wrist injured. i cant even turn my wrist around. i'd probably go for a check up over the weekends.

oh and, Emma finally talked to me.

Valentine's a joke. Everyday is Valentine's Day for me & you

"yaksokhae, najoldae nol ttona. saranghae"

Dearest Emma,

Im glad I had friend like you. you were always there to listen to my problems & I've tried to lend my ears to you too. I've never had any grudges or any hard feelings towards you before. you were more like a sister to me. like a mother too. I was touched after you came up to me & smack me in the face because of what I did in the past. It made me realise how much you cared for me. thank you very much, Emma.

But because of one stupid incident, we're treating each other like total strangers. I was never angry at you, im just really dissapointed at you. Please, for heaven sake, talk to me cause I dont want to loose a friend like you.

had a rather fustrating match against Clementi Town. but eventually, we won 3-0.

Fieza was really annoying man. she was like asking me ''did you go out yesterday?'' for like a gazillion times. i felt so freakin irritated man. but she made me laugh ah. i bet she's gonna try it tomorrow again. if she does, she can jolly well talk to my bloody hand cause my freakin ears wont listen. hahaha.

alright from now on, my mind is on art, biology & social studies during school hours. nothing more cause studies are killing me. i need to take it slowly.

"I've said this to you many times or so.
but I cant help but to stress it out again & again.
I love you & I dont wanna let go.
I'll love you till I go insane.''

im broke. i need money real fast man.
people like me are also affected by the economy crisis. but less so, i would say.

i farted a countless number of times today.
dont ask why. but i swear im not gonna fart in public.

''I wanna grow old with you.."

Adam Metro.. sape tk kenal siol!? hahaha. aku rindu ikan coil die. haha.

aku rindu sangat same Adam Metro. aku rindu bile die gile. kau lah brother rapat aku. slalu buat keje bodoh same2. dulu, bile kau ade problem, aku pun ade problem. aku sungguh rindu memori2 yang kite ade bersama. kau ajar aku cara yang baik. kau ajar aku funky, kau ajar aku hebat. walaupun kite tidak kenal bergitu lama, kau tetap di sisiku. mungkin kite akan bertemu lagi satu hari nanti.

since im like having all the time in the world right now, i'll take this oppurtunity to pen down my thoughts of Jenica cause she asked for it. seriously, i dont know where to start..
all right here goes. Jenica's a really pretty lady. the prettiest to my eye, the first on my mind. i like teasing her & i like plucking flowers for her everyday. i could never get tired of her. looking deep into her dark brown eyes, i can somehow see that what im feeling & what she's feeling is all so real. she makes me feel special, she makes everything seem alright. she brightens up my day & i always wanna be by her side. i'll let my heart lead me to her & i'll keep her safe with me. a promise it is.

have been busy this past few days. obviously, with school. its already friday, time flies. im slowly getting my grip on my studies once again. school has been great as usual. chit-chatting during lessons, having a so called 'picnic' while the teacher talks to the board, doodling on papers & tables & having a ball of a time after school. i also get to cut a pig's heart during biology. can you believe it? so cool but yet so gross. just looking at the blood dripping out from the heart while i cut it in half makes me wanna puke. here are some of the pictures.

im very happy but yet very disspointed. one reason for me being happy is that i got 42/80 for my english mock exam. wait, i havent finish what i wanna say.. only two people in my class passed the paper. yes, can you believe it? my teacher expected better results from me though.
ok right now, im feeling all mushy & dissapointed with myself cause our school lost to Hong Kah,3-0. seriously man, we could have actually won or at least get a draw from that game. the only problem was, we had to play with 10 man on our side after Sufi was shown the red card. i made a huge mistake that caused Hong Kah to get the third goal. i was like ''whattahell is wrong with me man?!"
but after a few mistakes, i finally managed to get myself pumped up & not repeat those mistakes again. still, im very dissapointed.
& now i have to suffer all the cramps especially on my ass. i cant seem to get rid of it.

aaaaah, Jeni was like running her fingers up & down my back for awhile just now & i was like "aaaaaaah"(with my steamy face) i havent had that feeling in awhile. & she's going to give me a massage tmrw because i asked her to. maybe i should hire her to become my personal massager. hmmmm, yeah i think i should. hahaha.