When nothing goes right, go left.

Falling in love with sunsets.

i've got a few quotes stuck up on the wall behind my desktop saying ''your future is not in the hands of your teachers. your future is in your hands''. and another saying ''it's better to look ahead & prepare than to look back & regret''.

i spent the whole day, just thinking about Abdul Shakir bin Abdul Samad & these few lines. i thought hard & deep till i came to the point where i said to myself 'hard work will eventually pay off'.

A long & tired day. pretty much worned out by the time i got home.
Firstly, went out with Mdm Fat, Izzuan & Farris to send some n level art stuffs to the idk what place is that. while waiting for our turn to go in the room, we were checking out some chicks from other schools. hahah, boys will be boys man. just checkin 'em out, nothing more. then headed to west coast & had lunch, Mdm Fat's treat before going back to Chestnut. the journey back was enjoyable. me, sharing my phobia of big tyres when i was a kid & the others sharing their phobias too & we made fun of each other. we even watched bananas in pyjamas in the car. lame show, but oh well. after the end of school, had a councilor investiture thing. didn't take pictures but hung around in the hall watching with my googely eyes. then went out for awhile, saw Dini. then went back, watched the staff versus students game which the staff won 3-2. good game, worth watching. after that, had the syf thank you dinner. took a couple of pictures before getting bored & joining peeps at the back of the concert, eating a whole lot of junk from the buffet. then stick around for a little while before taking a tour around the school compound in the dark. scary, what akif & i saw gave me goosebumps. waited for the rest, & went straight to bp, had "dessert" before going home. had a good day, actually. there are more behind the scene stories.

An Evening With Norah

i did went out with Norah today. we practically talked non-stop. so yeah, we made our way down to keppel bay & we shared some things with each other. the scorching hot sun didn't really bother me. we watched the sunset & we cracked a few jokes here & there before heading to vivo for dinner. we went around searching for burger king since she really wanted to eat there & we ended up getting lost. we went up to this dumb looking security guard to ask him where burger king is & he showed us the way there. so after munching, she had a tummy upset. funny. we board the bus & chitty-chatty till it was time i needed to get off. yeah, i had a great day with her, catching up on things, sharing things with each other. thanks for today.

yesterday was ermm, alright. went to Sungei Buloh with the same faces, enjoying the scenery there while trying our luck at fishing. for some of us, it was our first time fishing(like me). well not really, i just never tried throwing the rod before. & so yesterday i tried & its embarassing to admit, but my hook got stuck on the tree two times while trying to throw it to the sea. so for the few hours we were there, we only caught a clam. sucks, i know. hahah. well there's always a next time man.
so today's Sunday. the wheather looks pretty good for going out. i text Norah last night. haven't seen her for quite awhile now & surely, there's alot to talk about between me & her & everything that had happened & is happening around us. so yeah, currently waiting for her to text me.

anyone up for a game of table tennis with me?

haven't been updating this blog much lately. just couldnt find the time to slot in words onto the screen. well, the exams are over & im relieved. brought home the school's camera until next week. giving me the oppurtunity to go out, taking pictures to free my mind. i've been enjoying my days with peeps playing table tennis & all at ahmad's place. & i still have a few more days left to enjoy before really working my ass off for the prelims, then n level. June holidays are coming. which means, more brain digging to do.

finally, the weekend is here. i needed this time out more than anything else right now. the last papers would be on monday. chem & maths paper 2. easy-peasy for me. cause imma sleep for the whole time.
imma go shopping tomorrow, buying myself something. probably a shoe i guess. hope Suhaimi's coming cause if not, i'd be a sad shopper going around alone.
currently reading chicken soup for the teenage soul which is very inspirational cause there's nothing much in mind or to do right now. oh yeah, Malaysia's got its first swine flu case. it's confirmed. its reported that he/she flew in from the states & contracted with this disease. so to all those 'every weekend' malaysia go-ers, ya'll better becareful aight. i know i may sound like your mum but wth, just be careful

this week has been mess, really. i am totally screwed. the exams were drop dead difficult. well, to me it was cause i didnt do any real revision except for flipping through the pages of my textbook without getting anything into my brain. monday & tuesday went by just fine. celebrated my mum's birthday. my brother, his gf, father & me waited till 12 am when she went to sleep on tuesday morning to give my mum a surprise-on the bed-party. i was so happy to see my mum smile like she had never smiled before.

but the last few days hasn't been great at all. i just couldn't keep my mind on the exams. alot of issues has been bugging me. i feel so mad, i feel so angry.

well for today, i had my 3 hours of intense drawing & painting which ended up like a piece of crap. i lost my art file about a week back. & i definitely didnt know what to do for the exam earlier. i mean, i lost my drawings & all. how do you suppose i make something extraodinary out of nothing? i feel like i've dissapointed Mdm Fat alot. all i ever wanted was to make her happy. i've been trying my best but idk man.. shit happens.

sometimes, things are just not meant to be. i cant stop that.

I've been lazing around at home like one pig. i was taking this saturday afternoon as an oppurtinity to have a good rest. but Ahmad called me in the middle of my sleep & he was being an irritating bastard. so i just put down the phone & went straight back to sleep.
I think Mdm Fat is gonna be so pissed off with me cause i lost my art file. i told her about it & she said i almost gave her a h(art) attack. hahaha. it totally sucks when you've been putting alot of hard work on something & suddenly it just go missing. i guess this is what i get for stealing all those pencils from people. karma. well, i didn't really steal em', i just.. borrowed them but i forgot to gave em' back.

tomorrow's Sunday. Uncle Jerry would be spending the day with us tomorrow. he invited the boys of my family to play basketball with him. in my mind, i was like "basketball? what in the world?!". so much for basketball, he even wants to watch Star Trek with us & my mind was going "STAR TREK?! out of all the movies, why star trek dude?" my family has never been a big fan of basketball nor a fan star trek. we have never watched basketball & we hardly watch those weird star trek shows. but trying out new stuffs would be cool though, considering Uncle Jerry, a very outgoing, spontaneous & hilarious man, inviting us. BUT i still think star trek lovers a weirdos! but im not saying my uncle is weird. wait, maybe he is. no, idk.. oh well, americans!

for what it's worth, it was worth all the while.

i dont know how the hell that lady got into my blog. but its alright.

everyday is a challenge & for 15 god damn years, i've lost 80% of the challenge.
meaning, i keep wasting every single day of my life. i really need to do something with myself. if there ever was a teevee show called extreme makeover for my attitude, i would gladly take part in it. & for 15 god damn years, i've been sigh-ing at the end of the day, everyday. yeah, so that is why, i am so gonna make a change in the way i do things in my filty classroom. by hook or by crook, i must bloody listen to my teacher & do my work. i dont want to be a failure! i know, talk is cheap. but i know i have that determination, perseverance & endurance somewhere deep down inside of me just waiting to be called upon. so this is the best time, i can use this hidden abilities. wow, im talking as though i have super powers.

my days have been really hectic. soccer, school e.g.

i dont wanna talk about anything else. its really stressing me out, thinking about all the other things that is happening around me.

Surpise, surprise!

teehee [:

Yay! I hacked into your blog. Okay, not really ah. Hahaha.

Shakir can't post anything here right now cause his computer spoil. I miss him so much cause his bloody bills haven't paid yet. -.- Now I have no one else to text except for Emily. Haha. All the people in my contacts are like deadzxcs.

Hmm, let's see.. Shakir has been very busy with alot of stuff. School, soccer, etc. Today, he went to get his class t-shirt. [Yay for him!] Haha. !!! Idk what else to write. Idk what's on his mind these days. I gave him this letter just recently and he hasn't said anything much about it. FOOL. Anw, I know his on his way to Ahmad's house right now wasting his time down there. Go home lah! Go work out so one day I would see a beautiful body before me. Haha, kidding. Okay, Im gonna stop here cause I've got no idea of what to write anymore. [:

Bye peepos!

You may never know how important you are to me or how much I care for you, but you are and you will always be. Bear in mind that I couldnt afford to lose someone I've learned to care about so much.

I love you,

Abdul Shakir

the exams today was a total mess for me. for Eng paper 1, i did section two but i dint do section 1. section two was the letter writing. so yeah, i finished that first. then came section 1, which is composition, i chose question 3 which is on integrity. so i decided to do a story on love for integrity. i was writting with so much confidence that i would ace it. there was 30 mins left on the clock & i only did 1 & a half page. i quickly read through my essay & i said to myself "what the bullcrap am i writting about?" my essay on love totally went out of point from the question, integrity. so, i crumpled up the paper & threw it away. by the time, i had about 20 mins left, i decided not to re-do it. & i know im gonna flung my English paper for the first time. paper 2 was quite alright but i slept halfway through the paper, only to wake up with 45 mins left but i managed to complete it.

i spent time with Jeni & this really cute baby girl. we had fun, adoring her.she had the cheeks of the fattest sumo wrestler and her eyes were like a cat's(in a good sense ah). she didnt speak a single word to us. she just kept quiet playing the toy cars with us. then when her maid wanted to leave, i said goodbye to her & finally she spoke. she said in this really cute, soft, gentle voice ''bye!" & she ran off. this adorable lil' kid is, Mya.

4 non-blondes

cikgu roz: teringatlah zaman diorang sec 1

mdm fatimah: skrg semua dah bujang-bujang.

Alo creatures!

when was the last time i actually wrote something here? like one month ago?

i finally had my blog fixed, of course, thanks to that lovely emily. my blog went haywire a couple of weeks back. something went wrong with the template.

well for me, i've been doing fine. alot has happened over the past few weeks. im back in good terms with ms roz. the 4-non blondes(me,farris,izzuan,aryna) had lunch @ swensens along with mdm fatimah & ms roz. we all had a good time, talking about the past, problems, relationship & so on..

my school had our annual cross country & i came in 28th. yeah, sucks but oh well, i did try my best. the school went crazy after the race. it almost felt like our last day & we had to do something nonsensical & absurd.

for yesterday, it was the first time after a long while that i went to ochard. alot has changed. more chicks(hehe), more flicks, more new places. we went for our school's president councilor's sweet sixteen birthday party. i wonder why she wants to make it so grand. it was held at ochard parade hotel, in a suite. abit squeezy to fit about 30 invited people but we had fun though. then there was this dancefloor game thing. & ''WOW'' is all that i can say.

so here i am, sticking my butt on the computer chair & glueing my eyes to the screen on this humid sunday afternoon. imma cut my hair later on in the evening cause it's really long & abit uncomfortable especially in this kind of weather.

Hello Shakir ^^ Ha ha, your blog is done. And, don't go to the template for no reason ok. Rofl, kidding. Ha, anyway you may find this skin v familiar because its my skin and its also Iqah's. Sorry uh, its really hard for me to find a skin that is suitable for you and plus i couldn't find your previous skin. ): But hope you likes it uh, anything can just look for me.

And, your tagb, i changed it already, i will text you the info alright. The song, you can change it if you want, but if you don't know how to, let me know. I'll help you with it, fred not. :) Ok la, till here then, i'm off to Pet Society! :B

Last long with Jenica, lotsa love,
Emoily. :)