my heart sank when the final whistle was blown. i feel devastated. i can still feel it man. it sucks. it sucks to know that you have given your best, you've gave all that you've got. like everything till you go down on your scrapped knees, have hopes for the best but you lose. we lost 1-0. it was match to be remembered. i guess my best, just wasn't good enough. you can call it unlucky.

i've made it to where i am & want to be. no lookin back anymore. it's been a rough road to get me here. the sweat & ache i had to bare. i stopped at nothing for the chance to even be here. the sacrifices & choices i made. it was worth the while, it was worth the wait. it was worth it all. what am i talking about you ask? first, thank you bus driver of bus 970 for sending me home & oooo, it feels great to be on the bed.

that was crap.thanks for reading it.

you had the chance & you blew it.

to be honest, my mind's blank.

ok, i'll start with a simple, hello dudes & dudettes

you know sometimes you just gotta write to get it off your chest.

i spent some time in the toilet with the laptop while shit shitting in the morning. zerious, no kidding. my phone's going mental again, it never stops vibrating.

i wanna catch up on old times with peeps. i think hanging out with em might improve my morale. maybe i should.

see you tities around.

if only i could put it in words.

i slept at 9 last night & woke up at 6. spent a good 45mins in the toilet & now im here. no seriously, it took me 30 mins to let it all go. another 15 mins of relaxination. i've got stomp in about few hours but i dont know what time to report. i really hope that she is coming. its been a long wait.

here's my diet since the beginning of the year.
1 or 2 proper meals on monday to thursday. if i eat only 1 proper meal, i'll be eating snacks & junk for the rest of the day.
3 or 4 heavy meals(rice with etc.chicken, egg) on fridays, saturdays & sundays. + ice creams on saturday nights.
i really think i should change my diet. & eat veggie. okay that was random.
aight imma go find something chew on.

stay true dawg.

it's only the 11th day of the new year and i'm already starting to feel the pressure. i have maths homework undone, mother tongue homework not done & 2 textbooks not bought yet. adding to the pressure, i got soccer 2 to 3 times per week & 'O' level art coursework is gonna start real soon. it's draining me out. it feels like dracula sucking out my blood bit by bit. i really think this could lead to my downfall & giving up hopes of working harder.

oh, i forgot to mention that i lost my phone on new year's eve. what a way to end 2009 huh? gotta live without it. i wish all you rockers & babes the best of luck.

peace.